*blinks*
And I thought I was going through hell.
I'm here for all of you. More than you'll ever know. I know you don't know me all that well, but you are all my friends and when my friends are in serious shit I am there for them, no matter what.
I can't pick a side but I'm willing to hear both. I can't tell you what's right and what's wrong but I'm will to listen to give my opinion.
And with all that said I do hope soemthing works out. Really, I have so much of own drama right now with my feelings and Justin that when I see all this, I can't help but worry and I get more upset and frustrated knowing that I can't help.
*sighs*
So my life...how am I feeling? What am I doing? To be completly honest, I feel like a fuck up and my life just isn't what it used to be anymore. I seem to be pissing everyone off lately. I feel cornered and lost. And I can't even have a conversation in a chat anymore without getting totally lost or angry. I feel like I'm not apart of you guys anymore and we're losing touch of some sort. I can't bare that anymore.
It's hurting so much and I want to know if there was something I did or someone I hurt. And why isn't anyone telling me anything. Whatever happened to all that? Yeah. I hate feeling selfish...
On a little happier note, my Lauren is feeling better. She had a really bad cold and it kept me from all of you, so hmm maybe that was it but really I had to take care of her and I'm just glad she is finally better.
Heather and Tyler have been nothing but supportive of everything that I'm doing and I'd to thank you guys. You truly are the best siblings anyone could ever have. I actually still can't believe my sister is pregnant and my brother is married. It's all still so new to me but I like treasure it because they're extremly happy with where they are and that's just something I've always wanted in all of them. Sami and Amit you're now apart of my family and I truly am blessed that you guys are in it. I just hope my feelings lately towards things haven't effected you in any way. I love you all so much and what I do with my feelings is nothing personal too you. And hey Justin, that goes for you too. I love you as well baby, more than anything in this whole intire world.
~Jayce
PS. Work things out and come to me if you need me. That was the main reason of this update.
I'm here for all of you. More than you'll ever know. I know you don't know me all that well, but you are all my friends and when my friends are in serious shit I am there for them, no matter what.
I can't pick a side but I'm willing to hear both. I can't tell you what's right and what's wrong but I'm will to listen to give my opinion.
And with all that said I do hope soemthing works out. Really, I have so much of own drama right now with my feelings and Justin that when I see all this, I can't help but worry and I get more upset and frustrated knowing that I can't help.
*sighs*
So my life...how am I feeling? What am I doing? To be completly honest, I feel like a fuck up and my life just isn't what it used to be anymore. I seem to be pissing everyone off lately. I feel cornered and lost. And I can't even have a conversation in a chat anymore without getting totally lost or angry. I feel like I'm not apart of you guys anymore and we're losing touch of some sort. I can't bare that anymore.
It's hurting so much and I want to know if there was something I did or someone I hurt. And why isn't anyone telling me anything. Whatever happened to all that? Yeah. I hate feeling selfish...
On a little happier note, my Lauren is feeling better. She had a really bad cold and it kept me from all of you, so hmm maybe that was it but really I had to take care of her and I'm just glad she is finally better.
Heather and Tyler have been nothing but supportive of everything that I'm doing and I'd to thank you guys. You truly are the best siblings anyone could ever have. I actually still can't believe my sister is pregnant and my brother is married. It's all still so new to me but I like treasure it because they're extremly happy with where they are and that's just something I've always wanted in all of them. Sami and Amit you're now apart of my family and I truly am blessed that you guys are in it. I just hope my feelings lately towards things haven't effected you in any way. I love you all so much and what I do with my feelings is nothing personal too you. And hey Justin, that goes for you too. I love you as well baby, more than anything in this whole intire world.
~Jayce
PS. Work things out and come to me if you need me. That was the main reason of this update.