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Ok well I havn't had a normal entry in a few days so ill catch up for anyone who reads my lj monday nothin big happened i went to school and came home went to wal-mart and then took a nap brittany was supposed to come over to study but she called while i was at wal-mart and it didnt happen Tuesday was ok i went to school and adi was there she wasnt there monday but anyway i came home and took a nap brittany called at like 6 and came over we studied for a little while then we just hung out and talked for a little while and we decided to go to DQ for some icecream and for some reason she loves my sister so she came with us then after we ate ours we brought my mom hers back and brittany didnt want to go home yet cause it was only like 8 so we rode around and listened to music for a little while and then i took her home idk i think i like her but im not sure yet shes not ugly but if i dated her it would be for personality and since i started hangin out with noel i havnt dated anyone for that but Brittany is really cool so anyways o ye and my mom finally took down the christmas tree then today i got up and went to school i wasnt feelin to good but i still went first period we took a test and then i slept the rest of the period second period was fun we didnt do very much but that class is always fun for some reason (spanish) third period is my favorite class this sumester i have a new teacher and he makes world history a lot more fun than last semesters teacher but anyways fourth period was geometry so it was pretty boring me and brittany are stayin after tomarrow to make up the test we had friday for geometry fifth period english was ok before lunch i just sat and talked to brittany and after we just read julius caesar then in sixth period chemistry we learn some new ish and i talked to adi most of the period and then i came home and went o sleep i was so tired ive been depressed all this time but ive been talking to brittany and she listens more than most people i guess me and noel will never be friends again idk she hasnt talked to me so i figured she doesnt want to and i dont blame her so i dont even try anymore but im tired of caring its drained every bit of energy i have out of my body and when i had no more energy i threw up and im not just saying that i really did its all i can think about i think of how much of an asshole i was and everything else i was and i get pissed but i also think of all the good times and i cry because i miss the good times i will never get to have again but i fucked up and i know now i was wrong so whoa is me im tired of caring and i cant do it anymore i took all the pictures down and put every picture of her i have away i cant look at them anymore it makes me sick to know that i will never get to see her again because i was so stupid and it makes me sick to think that i could do anything to hurt her or piss her off she ment everything to me and i ruined that and now here i am again depressed and bored