Fuck, I want to sleep.
I had a long entry written up about my problems with sleeping and how I've been up every night this week until 4 or 5, and then I hit something and it all disappeared, and I don't feel like typing it out again, or even remember half of what I said. Tonight, I ended up falling asleep on the couch at 10:30 in front of the TV, and then at 11 when the show was over, going to lie down in bed, where I slept until 3. Then, however, I woke up to my wife's snoring and assorted other noises and could not fall back asleep. I even broke out the earplugs I haven't had to use in a while, and the noise was still coming through. After laying there wide awake, staring at the ceiling for a while, I decided to come to the computer and pay some bills, at least get something productive done with my day(night). I got aid today including my X-mas commission check, and can actually get myself slightly out of my financial hole. I'm now paid up on almost everything(until next month). I need to get into a sleep schedule, this is killing me. I can't keep depriving myself of sleep for a month or two and then just crashing for 14 hours one night to catch up. It's not healthy. I envy my wife. She can sleep anywhere, anytime at the snap of a finger. I need darkness and silence, and have to be ready to sleep. If I'm not, I can lie there for hours and not fall asleep. I saw a doctor about this last year and he gave me some pills, but I haven't used any yet. I'm kind of worried, and not sure that's a road I want to get down. Plus, you have to allow at least 8 hours for sleep, and I've never been at a point where I could. I've tried some "natural" sleep aids, but I never noticed any effect. Any recommendations?