update
So things are going better. not perfect, but what really in life is always going perfect. I think the correct answer is..Nothing. Nina was supposed to be moving in. Thanks to her lies and lack of being able to save money, she has once again let down another potential life long friend. I was warned by about a dozen people not to let nina in, not to trust her and not to befriend her as i had. But i didnt listen and i went with my heart...because unfortunitly my heart was telling me to many people in her life have just walked away. WEELLLLLL i made the wrong decision. Her actions have not only cost me $450 essentially, but also the stress and grief of fighting with mike again about bills. So instead of helping me, and helping her..she fucked it all up. Its okay thought because like i said...i made the wrong decision, and not im paying for it.
things with the band are going great! we are still playing every tuesday night at the claddaugh, and we have shows coming up soon at Brooks Park. things are going well musically..lots of options are opening up so thats good. Other then non-reliable band members, music is exactly where i want and need it to be.
Mike and i are working really hard...like always, and partying even harder. Enjoying 23 years old... Mike will be 25 this year. I still think about the baby constantly . its almost like its haunting me. I have dreams about it all the time..holding him or her..in my dreams its a boy. Id like to think that it was... I cant wait untill the day i can have a child..and really get to hold it. That was one of the things that bothers me to this day. I never even got to see it grow.
liz and chris have been seeing eachother and its really great to be able to hang out with her like every day. Other then that..nothing is new. Im ust kind agoing day to day. In my opinion thats the only thing i can do these days to stay sane...
farewell