The Woah Moment!
So lately some of you know that my current world has been... whoa! Some of you may call it WHOA! But since Easter, I have kinda taken a look back and made an interesting observation. Now I've always KNOWN this observation, but to truly see it has been interesting. Everyone gets to a point where they stop and go "Whoa! How did EVERYTHING get all clusterf-ed all of a sudden?" I mean one person lost some incredible people in her life and has to deal with it EVERY day. It's always there for her. She did the whoa thing awhile ago, but my point is... she was already a mom. Ash has had them kinda throughout life so his most recent incidence he seems to take pretty well, but I know he'd freaking on the inside. He's 24. J has her whole school thing happening and while she kinda saw it, it all just jumped on her. She's 21. I stumbled upon a "certain someone's" journal entries and realized that she had her whoa moment not long after high school. Now that's when I thought it was all supposed to happen! Not when you're three years into college, 24 and dealing with all the "mysteries of medicine" or a mom! And in all this confusion you feel like you have to figure it all out right away. You question faith, loved ones and even yourself and in those moments you feel you are forced to fix it right then. Now I'm not saying just sit back and see where it goes, cause in some cases getting off your ass or getting help is all that will fix it. It's funny though, sitting kinda in the middle of a whoa moment, people try to tell you to smile and relax through it and look and the bright side of things! Those are the people that you just wanna punch really hard. Yeah okay... in a whoa moment it's not so easy to say "well some ass-hole takes something incredibly important from me and still wants to call and chat every once in a while." Where is the bright side in that... at least he still wants to chat? Or you're laid up in the hospital with the ever popular, "well, we don't know what it is, so we're going to say it's a virus and keep you here to see if it works it's way out." Keeping in mind that work won't pay you unless you WORK and the excruciating pain surprise surgery leaves you in. But hey, let's look at the bright side...you could be dead! You're at school and things are going to shit and you're kinda just standing there watching it all happen. No matter what you do... it still happens. The bright side (a little easier than the above and below) at least I'm at school. Then you are fresh out of HS and it seems like EVERYONE just disappears. And you're standing there like... "hmmm what the hell just happened?" That "solid" floor you were just standing on?... yeah not so solid and your in a whoa moment. And where's the bright side in that? Unless you people are really going to help... Keep your sunshine and rainbows the hell away from me cause it isn't going to help my situation. Go find someone that wants to hear that shit and hold hands with them... sing... chant...whatever you happy no "whoa" lifers do, but when you do get the WHOA!... let me know. I'll send you flowers.