discount easter candy
so, wtf is up with everyone getting engaged and married lately? it's like a disease that's slowly spreading across my age group. it's not that i'm jealous, i know girls that are jealous but actually i feel like i've already been there and done that and am enjoying just being my age. which is the point, these people are my age and they want to act like they're 40 and get married. i don't get it. aren't i still a kid?
it's strange to think that that's something that i can't ever aspire to, even if i wanted to. maybe what's weirding me out about it is that it really differentiates me from people that i didn't notice differences from before. i mean we all have boyfriends or girlfriends and it's all more or less the same. but once you get married, you enter this world to which for better or worse i will never have access.
it's one thing to have always figured i'd be the lesbian aunt, and never to have been the little girl who planned to get married or have kids. the only thing i wanted when i was a little kid was to live on a boat or in the rainforest and study dolphins or jaguars. but to be relegated to that position by default... i don't like it. not something i think about often but still, i don't like being relegated. down with relegation.
so nervous about interview tomorrow. i hate things that matter.
it's strange to think that that's something that i can't ever aspire to, even if i wanted to. maybe what's weirding me out about it is that it really differentiates me from people that i didn't notice differences from before. i mean we all have boyfriends or girlfriends and it's all more or less the same. but once you get married, you enter this world to which for better or worse i will never have access.
it's one thing to have always figured i'd be the lesbian aunt, and never to have been the little girl who planned to get married or have kids. the only thing i wanted when i was a little kid was to live on a boat or in the rainforest and study dolphins or jaguars. but to be relegated to that position by default... i don't like it. not something i think about often but still, i don't like being relegated. down with relegation.
so nervous about interview tomorrow. i hate things that matter.