Empathetic cats
Cats really do seem to get it.
I just got home and shortly after collapsed on the couch feeling mixed up and crying a little - and at the sound of the first sniffle, Yuna ran over, jumped on the couch and curled up next to my neck licking my cheek. She just stayed there until I had to jump up and get the phone. Yuna can be so nice... sometimes.
I feel torn. Or rather, if I continue feeling like I'm pulled in opposite directions much more I may tear - get fed up... and I don't know what then. I feel the need to be at home - both for my self, and for the sake of responsibility to the cleanliness of the house and happiness of its inhabitants. I need to spend time at D's, for her and for me - for us, and because I like it there. Somewhere in there I need time on my own... even if it seems like nobody else seems to need to be on their own - I do. I want to see friends more... I haven't been mountain biking in forever (can't put a finger on why)... and despite my lack of work, I feel like I'm falling behind on it.
I should have stuck with my plan on how to spend my day today. I thought I was ok with pushing my day around when it came up this morning, I really did - but now I'm feeling awful about it. ...Like my time isn't mine to spend as much as it needs to be... and sometimes like it isn't as important as other people's time. Having said that - it's being worked on. It, and one other little thing, just started tweaking on my emotions much more than I expected all of a sudden.
In other news: I just went and visited my car at the body shop to talk to them about replacing a really rusty part that doesn't have to do with the accident. Got a call back a bit ago and was quoted a very reasonable price for doing that job... so I'm happy about that. Update - I was in my first car accident a couple weeks ago in my brand new (to me) car that I spent a good 2 months researching and buying. I'm ok - but the car's not all that ok. My ICBC adjustor is on holidays so everything is put on hold. He seems to think that it should be 100% the other person's fault... but I am nervous because they went and got a lawyer. So - I'd had the car for a month... and the whole time was trying to sell my old car - no hits on it at all. Well. Two days after my accident I get a call from someone who proceeds to buy my car after hardly even looking at it. ...Right when I could have used it. Ah well. I'm happy that it sold. At the moment I'm driving a courtesy car. It's a white Tercel with the lucky number 13 on the door.
I'm determined that updates will be more regular from now on.