Happy Hell
Ok people this should come out ok but if it does not then blame my computer. I don't know what to write about. I have so much to say but none of it wants to come out. It feels like I have all these thaughts in my head but when I try to release them they refuse to leave. I know that I have not posted in however long but that is part of the reason and also because I have been posting on another website. Anyways back to this feeling I gues it has been with me since I left school. I don't know why I feel this way I am so happy on the outside that I think I even full myself sometimes. It is stupid and I can't believe that even after this time apart and after dating about 20 other people I can't forget her and get her out of my head. I talked to her yesterday and that was strange because I dd not know how to act to her. I don't understand myself anymore I don't know what I am feeling and what I want in life anymore. I can't tell anyone because if I do then they just think that I need sometme out of school. I don't know either. I have been drinking like crazy and smoking a lot. Its like I know that it is bad but I gues when I drink I am not confused because I am just plain drunk. Lately I have been drinking so much that I don't even get myself drunk anymore. I have been so tempted to go back to smoking weed but I don't at least I haven't yet I guess that I still have some sane part in my mind. Well that is about it I can ramble on and on for hours. Love you all.
PS I will try to post more often.
PS I will try to post more often.