texmas!
well, in 4 minutes it'll be christmas day, it has been so freakin crazy for the last month, i dont know what to do, im hoping it'll be over soon, like new years eve or so.
lemme start by telling you why it has sucked so much. gary, an older guy i worked with at acme a lot, died last week, im not entirely sure of the details, all i know is he's gone, and it just left me in a state of shock, i had no idea something could be wrong, seemed like a normal healthy guy... its really sad. on the same day i heard about this, i learned my aunt shirley died, my grandpa on my moms sides sister. she was found on the floor in her bathroom.
i have no idea how to deal with death, especiall not multiple ones. i mean, if someone really close to me were to die, i'd probobly know how to deal with it, i'd probobly just shut down and weep constantly and have no willpower towards anything, but deaths that dont directly affect me like this are kinda wierd to deal with, i mean i didnt know either very well. i dunno how to mourn.
well, this is the first christmas where i actually bought my own gifts for everyone, me 'n haleigh went to target, and got 215 bucks worth of gifts together, it was kickass, nipped it right in the bud, very efficient, and effective.
i cant wait to see what i got, i think this is gonna be a good christmas, my canadian grandparents are down for the week or so, not sure, but they are frazzled from my aunts death, my grandpa was never one to express much, but he seems...off lately, ugh i dunno, im so used to him being so stable and knowing.
unusual... these times are trying to say the least, well to all a goodnight, and just to let you know, i love you all, if it werent for the people who are around me, i would probobly be lonely pathetic, and miserable, not to mention fat and stupid...
lemme start by telling you why it has sucked so much. gary, an older guy i worked with at acme a lot, died last week, im not entirely sure of the details, all i know is he's gone, and it just left me in a state of shock, i had no idea something could be wrong, seemed like a normal healthy guy... its really sad. on the same day i heard about this, i learned my aunt shirley died, my grandpa on my moms sides sister. she was found on the floor in her bathroom.
i have no idea how to deal with death, especiall not multiple ones. i mean, if someone really close to me were to die, i'd probobly know how to deal with it, i'd probobly just shut down and weep constantly and have no willpower towards anything, but deaths that dont directly affect me like this are kinda wierd to deal with, i mean i didnt know either very well. i dunno how to mourn.
well, this is the first christmas where i actually bought my own gifts for everyone, me 'n haleigh went to target, and got 215 bucks worth of gifts together, it was kickass, nipped it right in the bud, very efficient, and effective.
i cant wait to see what i got, i think this is gonna be a good christmas, my canadian grandparents are down for the week or so, not sure, but they are frazzled from my aunts death, my grandpa was never one to express much, but he seems...off lately, ugh i dunno, im so used to him being so stable and knowing.
unusual... these times are trying to say the least, well to all a goodnight, and just to let you know, i love you all, if it werent for the people who are around me, i would probobly be lonely pathetic, and miserable, not to mention fat and stupid...