oh man.
last night was very adventurous...i left my room at 12.30am, jogged a couple of miles out to the williamsburg inn and back on the golf course there to find laura, lara, and lauren. we stayed there til 2.15am or so...then we decided we should come back cause lara had two tests today and she should sleep. well, then we thought ihop would be fun. so we went there and got really yummy food. and i got home at...i dunno about 4.30am. sooooo fun! and the reason why i'm soooo tired. but i love it.
wow, this year is actually ending. hard to believe. to be honest i thought these days would never come. and it's crazy. my freshman year, i loved this place so much that i never wanted to leave and it was like pulling teeth to get me to go home. my sophomore year, i was not so much a fan. fall of this year, i pretty much hated it here. and all the sudden i've really started to like it again. fancy that.
everybody's packing up and moving out, going off to crazy places and some people 'just' going home. not me, i'm staying. "when are you leaving?" "i'm not..." yeah, that's the conversation i've been having. nope, i'm not going home. not even for a couple of days. i'm going to be here. and there's a part of me that's really excited about that, because it will be something totally different and i'll be starting to be a little more independent, and there are going to be some really awesome people here for colonial summer this year. it'll be crazy and wonderful. but there's another part of me that really misses watching sunsets over the mountains on the back porch. and that *really* misses all the wonderful friends there are in roanoke that there is never enough quality time to spend with. and i'm sad when i think about missing out on a summer with them.
but i guess that's the nature of growing up. you go enough places and make friends in each one, and after a while it's inevitable that your heart is torn between all of those places and all of those people. either way with this, whether i went back to roanoke or stayed in williamsburg, i'd feel like i was missing out on time with someone wonderful. and really it's a blessing that i have so many wonderfuls in my life that i want to be able to spend time with. so i should just think of it that way. but i miss the ones who i can't see face to face, can't reach over and hug, can't drive up to the house in the afternoon just to say hello and end up staying for hours...i miss those.
and i don't know why i'm getting all sentimental about it. i'm actually kinda crying right now. maybe just cause when i'm tired i start thinking too much. maybe cause now actually i'm starting to miss the people who've already left for their summer adventures. maybe.
wow, this year is actually ending. hard to believe. to be honest i thought these days would never come. and it's crazy. my freshman year, i loved this place so much that i never wanted to leave and it was like pulling teeth to get me to go home. my sophomore year, i was not so much a fan. fall of this year, i pretty much hated it here. and all the sudden i've really started to like it again. fancy that.
everybody's packing up and moving out, going off to crazy places and some people 'just' going home. not me, i'm staying. "when are you leaving?" "i'm not..." yeah, that's the conversation i've been having. nope, i'm not going home. not even for a couple of days. i'm going to be here. and there's a part of me that's really excited about that, because it will be something totally different and i'll be starting to be a little more independent, and there are going to be some really awesome people here for colonial summer this year. it'll be crazy and wonderful. but there's another part of me that really misses watching sunsets over the mountains on the back porch. and that *really* misses all the wonderful friends there are in roanoke that there is never enough quality time to spend with. and i'm sad when i think about missing out on a summer with them.
but i guess that's the nature of growing up. you go enough places and make friends in each one, and after a while it's inevitable that your heart is torn between all of those places and all of those people. either way with this, whether i went back to roanoke or stayed in williamsburg, i'd feel like i was missing out on time with someone wonderful. and really it's a blessing that i have so many wonderfuls in my life that i want to be able to spend time with. so i should just think of it that way. but i miss the ones who i can't see face to face, can't reach over and hug, can't drive up to the house in the afternoon just to say hello and end up staying for hours...i miss those.
and i don't know why i'm getting all sentimental about it. i'm actually kinda crying right now. maybe just cause when i'm tired i start thinking too much. maybe cause now actually i'm starting to miss the people who've already left for their summer adventures. maybe.