Pivots?
It's always fun to look back on past events and wonder how your life would be different if events had played out in another fashion. I think back on many events and pivots in my life on a regular basis, but the one that effected me the most was the move.
When I was ten my family move to a bigger home. This was because my grandmother had recently passed away and my grandfather could not live alone. Yes they could of put him in a nursing home or something but I guess it did not fit right with my family. I was not happy with the move of course. No longer being able to see my friends on a regular basis was the largest complaint I had. Sure I had another 4 or so months to say goodbye while I finished up the school year but all in all I was not happy to see it all end.
He only lived with us a few years before he passed away but I'm pretty sure he was mostly gone as it was when he came to us. His mind had degraded so much that he did not know who we were half the time and had to be constantly reminded where he was and what was going on. One night before bed he told my dad to get a box ready, kind of symbolic I guess because that night he passed away in his sleep without anyone knowing. I was told the next morning of his passage but it never seemed to effect me. I feel a little callous saying this but to this day it does not make me at all sad thinking about his death. I barely knew the man as it was, I respected him I guess but by the time I was old enough to really understand what was going on in the world both him and my grandmother were mostly mentally gone so I never formed any true bond with them.
So as I was saying in my not so eloquent way of just writing, the biggest change in my life came from moving to my home in Tangelwood. Everything I know now, all my friends, my experiences thus far are due to my grandfather. And I thank him for this. Sure I wonder at times what it might of been like if I had never moved. If I had grown up going to Bedichek and Crocket. What kind of person I would be, who my friends would be and what my life goals would be. Would I mostly be the same person or would I be some asshole on the street selling drugs to get by? Exaggeration I know but anything is possible.
Its these pivotal moments in life that make me grateful I guess for what I have and who I know. This form of thought all came up monday night when I was out with Cathy and we got to talking about life changing events. The most recent one for her was last week on new years eve. The short side of the story goes if her father had not had to go to the ER for minor heart problems the day before she would of gone to Houston for New Years and we would not of meet and I would not be the happy person I currently am. Sure its likely I would of gotten more drunk at the New Years Eve party then I already was and gotten with the attractive but slightly whorish girl from work. But instead due to another mans heart problems I got to meet the girl I am infatuated with and who is equally enamored with me. And its just barely been a week.
Unfortunately a superstition has kind of grown up in my head due to past experiences. When ever I start to talk about a new female interest of mine with a close friend it always falls apart. But well hell this one has started different due to the close friend basically setting us up and her sneaking her number into my phone without me asking so hopefully it will go differently. I had only one major reservation to the whole thing from the start, this being our age difference (lets just say me being a little older). That quickly faded when I had a chance to sit down a few nights later and actually hold a sober conversation with her. I realized that age is certainly a state of mind and I know plenty of happy couples with years apart from each other. Hell look at my parents 6 years right there. So this is why I am in a great mood lately for those that have been asking.
So through a series of events in my life I have come to where I am and will continue to go. Every time I look back think about the friends I have and if it was not for them how my life would be different too. Due to my grandfather I moved and went to bailey. At Bailey I made friends who introduced me Bevyn. Through Bevyn I met Michael who was running an EB Games who because he knew me as Bevyn's friend hired me right away. At EB Games I met Matt who became a good friend who helped me get better jobs and who I was later lucky enough to be part of his marriage ceremony. I also met Anthony (aka AJ) at EB Games who later became a good friend to me and later became my roommate for a short period. He definitely introduced me to alot of new things in life such as ways of thinking, great books, interesting people, marijuana, etc. Through AJ I met his girlfriend of now a year and a half Jessica. And finally through Jessica this New Years Eve I met Catherine.
I guess what I'm trying to say is our networks, the people in our lives and the experiences they lead us to are what truly make us well us. But I'm sure being the uplifted people you are, you already knew this. So that is that.
When I was ten my family move to a bigger home. This was because my grandmother had recently passed away and my grandfather could not live alone. Yes they could of put him in a nursing home or something but I guess it did not fit right with my family. I was not happy with the move of course. No longer being able to see my friends on a regular basis was the largest complaint I had. Sure I had another 4 or so months to say goodbye while I finished up the school year but all in all I was not happy to see it all end.
He only lived with us a few years before he passed away but I'm pretty sure he was mostly gone as it was when he came to us. His mind had degraded so much that he did not know who we were half the time and had to be constantly reminded where he was and what was going on. One night before bed he told my dad to get a box ready, kind of symbolic I guess because that night he passed away in his sleep without anyone knowing. I was told the next morning of his passage but it never seemed to effect me. I feel a little callous saying this but to this day it does not make me at all sad thinking about his death. I barely knew the man as it was, I respected him I guess but by the time I was old enough to really understand what was going on in the world both him and my grandmother were mostly mentally gone so I never formed any true bond with them.
So as I was saying in my not so eloquent way of just writing, the biggest change in my life came from moving to my home in Tangelwood. Everything I know now, all my friends, my experiences thus far are due to my grandfather. And I thank him for this. Sure I wonder at times what it might of been like if I had never moved. If I had grown up going to Bedichek and Crocket. What kind of person I would be, who my friends would be and what my life goals would be. Would I mostly be the same person or would I be some asshole on the street selling drugs to get by? Exaggeration I know but anything is possible.
Its these pivotal moments in life that make me grateful I guess for what I have and who I know. This form of thought all came up monday night when I was out with Cathy and we got to talking about life changing events. The most recent one for her was last week on new years eve. The short side of the story goes if her father had not had to go to the ER for minor heart problems the day before she would of gone to Houston for New Years and we would not of meet and I would not be the happy person I currently am. Sure its likely I would of gotten more drunk at the New Years Eve party then I already was and gotten with the attractive but slightly whorish girl from work. But instead due to another mans heart problems I got to meet the girl I am infatuated with and who is equally enamored with me. And its just barely been a week.
Unfortunately a superstition has kind of grown up in my head due to past experiences. When ever I start to talk about a new female interest of mine with a close friend it always falls apart. But well hell this one has started different due to the close friend basically setting us up and her sneaking her number into my phone without me asking so hopefully it will go differently. I had only one major reservation to the whole thing from the start, this being our age difference (lets just say me being a little older). That quickly faded when I had a chance to sit down a few nights later and actually hold a sober conversation with her. I realized that age is certainly a state of mind and I know plenty of happy couples with years apart from each other. Hell look at my parents 6 years right there. So this is why I am in a great mood lately for those that have been asking.
So through a series of events in my life I have come to where I am and will continue to go. Every time I look back think about the friends I have and if it was not for them how my life would be different too. Due to my grandfather I moved and went to bailey. At Bailey I made friends who introduced me Bevyn. Through Bevyn I met Michael who was running an EB Games who because he knew me as Bevyn's friend hired me right away. At EB Games I met Matt who became a good friend who helped me get better jobs and who I was later lucky enough to be part of his marriage ceremony. I also met Anthony (aka AJ) at EB Games who later became a good friend to me and later became my roommate for a short period. He definitely introduced me to alot of new things in life such as ways of thinking, great books, interesting people, marijuana, etc. Through AJ I met his girlfriend of now a year and a half Jessica. And finally through Jessica this New Years Eve I met Catherine.
I guess what I'm trying to say is our networks, the people in our lives and the experiences they lead us to are what truly make us well us. But I'm sure being the uplifted people you are, you already knew this. So that is that.