I think the real issue may be...
I don't think anyone has ever wanted me.. Starting with my birth parents.. I guess I could have been aborted, but there's a lot of guilt in that.. Kevin didn't want me.. he made that very clear for years and I just didn't listen.. Jake doesn't want me and the thing is I don't even know why.. I thought we had the perfect relationship and then he breaks up with me outta no where.. I just wish I understood.. all I've ever wanted was just that one person and I don't understand why no one wants to be with me.. sure people wanna fuck me.. thats not wanting and I don't want anything to do with it.. I want someone to kiss and hold and be there for.. Even though my parents sent me away freshman year of college because they wanted to get me away from Kevin I still feel like maybe they just needed a break from me..