Mediocrity is the killer...

[jordash09]

It seems like people are always trying to be the best. It's great to do your best but there's always that one thing or one person who stops you from achieving that... maybe I'm just talkin out of my ass... Anyway, it seems like I can't keep a relationship... no, I can't keep a relationship. I end up being better friends than boyfriend. That whole thing "It's not you, it's me" well I think that statement means so much more than people give it credit. I mean fuckin young and trying to get through school... wow I sound like a stupid sap. But seriously, I'm not mature enough for anything. I don't know what people think when they say they are. Haha I remember two people put as their grad write up something like "I love so and so and we'll get married right out of high school..." Huge fight at prom and they broke up. Now that's just funny. I'm not gonna lie to you, your own aspirations are more important right now than most things. That isn't meant to be hurtful, just something that I've observed. 'Cause when it all comes down to it, what else do we have other than aspiration and inticipation?

I once knew this girl who said that she would choose herself and her career over others... not necessarily herself but school and meaningful work. I once thought her selfish. I now realize that she was just looking out for number two... the person she would have to leave behind...