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[jordan_mcevans]

I am almost pain free, had a check-up with the hospital and they said everything's good to go, so I'm expecting my back to stop being soreish in a couple days. Medicine makes me sleepy though. Doesn't really help when I'm trying to teach and almost fall asleep at my desk. Jenny usually throws something at me and I wake up. Guess that's what I get

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[jordan_mcevans]

I blink a few times, trying to remember if I heard that correctly. I suddenly pull away from her and sit up. "Is that what you want?" I ask her, the volume of my voice increasing slightly.

[jordan_mcevans]

I close my eyes, finding my way back down to rest my head on my pillow. "I definitely don't want to give up, Taffy." I say, finding her hand and covering it with mine. Makes me feel better, I think. "I love you. I don't want you to think that you aren't wanted if you come here. That's the last thing I want."

[jordan_mcevans]

"Okay," I say, taking a deep breath and relaxing once more as I allow myself to sink into the bed. "I'm all for figuring things out. I just don't want to lose you in the process." Or, y'know, be with Stefan. I'm surprised she hasn't brought that up yet. Maybe she's not into that so much anymore.

[jordan_mcevans]

"I agree." I tell her, closing my eyes but still focusing on her voice. Not that I don't care, pills just make my muscles more relaxed. And sleepy. It's a little painful though, because most of that's my fault. It all feels pointless now, just staying home and waiting around. Also known as avoiding. I really am horrible at this.

[jordan_mcevans]

And it suddenly feels like she's the one with all the doubts and I'm the guy who has all the faith in the world that things'll go back to the way they should be. Is that so bad? But then again, I don't feel like arguing. That would only lead to badness. "Okay." I breathe out, holding onto her hand a little tighter. I'm very glad that sentence wasn't completed.