I don't know what's going on anymore.
I hate this. I hate thinking too much. I'm in a decent amount of pain and stress right now, and I want more than anything to be able to go to sleep and pretend all of this just didn't happen. But as you can see, it's 5 in the morning, and I'm still up.
Lauren, you are the greatest thing to ever happen to me, and I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that you're the person I want to be with. I rarely gush like this, and I guess I'm kinda thankful you don't have an LJ so you don't have to hear me break down right now.
You are the most amazing person I've had the privilege and honor to know and be close with. I pray to God or whatever deity above me that I'll never lose you. You're the one thing that's keeping me going in this world that's driving me insane. I love you. You make me feel like I'm on top of the highest point on earth. You're the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep at night.
I guess I just want to let you know how much I love you and how much you mean to me, but I'm at a loss of words right now. I don't know how else to put it. I've been searching for someone like you for such a long time, and you were right under my nose for the entirety of it. When I'm with you, my stomach goes nuts and I can hardly contain myself. You're the one I want and I want no other. I love you from the bottom of my heart, and I'm always going to love you.
My arms will always be open to you, and my heart is yours to keep. I meant what I said tonight, you know. You're my world, and I never want to give it up. I know I said I'm tired of crying, but I can't help it. My face is wet and I can't see anything because it's so blurry. You're everything to me.
Shule agrah, mhi rosin dubh...
Lauren, you are the greatest thing to ever happen to me, and I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that you're the person I want to be with. I rarely gush like this, and I guess I'm kinda thankful you don't have an LJ so you don't have to hear me break down right now.
You are the most amazing person I've had the privilege and honor to know and be close with. I pray to God or whatever deity above me that I'll never lose you. You're the one thing that's keeping me going in this world that's driving me insane. I love you. You make me feel like I'm on top of the highest point on earth. You're the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep at night.
I guess I just want to let you know how much I love you and how much you mean to me, but I'm at a loss of words right now. I don't know how else to put it. I've been searching for someone like you for such a long time, and you were right under my nose for the entirety of it. When I'm with you, my stomach goes nuts and I can hardly contain myself. You're the one I want and I want no other. I love you from the bottom of my heart, and I'm always going to love you.
My arms will always be open to you, and my heart is yours to keep. I meant what I said tonight, you know. You're my world, and I never want to give it up. I know I said I'm tired of crying, but I can't help it. My face is wet and I can't see anything because it's so blurry. You're everything to me.
Shule agrah, mhi rosin dubh...