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These are the specs of my room. It's the attic. I feel as though sometimes I don't belong in this house cause my room is upstairs and it's not even done. I end up going to bed at 3am or later cause my brother leaves to go to work at that time. And I take his bed. I have a bed, it's in my sister's room. But that's her room. Most of the time now I sleep on the floor with my body pillow in my brothers room. His room is where i feel most comfortable. I don't want to go back to Mount St. Mary's I've yet to pay the next semester, i got a loan with my aunt that i my mother is holding. She put it in her bank account and now for some reason they're investigating her? That's fucking retarded it's my mother, she's holding my money and i don't want to go back to the Mount, I'm seeing if possible i can either go to YCP or maybe a community college cause the Mount is not where's it's at. I'm not happy there not one bit, it made me depressed, but if i go back, I'll work my ass off and keep to myself. The money i get will go here, for the house pot and pay off some bills cause I can't just sit on my ass and let my brother pay for everything! That's retarded and unfair, he has his freaking bachelor's in finance and shouldn't be working at FEdEX, screw it man. Screw it.
One thing I'm looking forward to is fixing that room up. I'm hopefully going to make it either Asian or African themed. Just to be different.