to adam
Thank you adam for breaking into my livejournal account.
Here's a little gift.
FeuerTanzer2004: i fucking love how your away message is about paul. i HATE you. thank you for letting me know that our ENTIRE relationship was a lie because your heart belonged to that STRAIGHT boy. you could have told me. your trash to me for LYING to my face everytime you tole me you loved me.
Auto response from stellarcemetery: me:you watching the superbowl?
paul:have you ever heard me ever mention sports
me:I heard about how you cut yourself with a machete
paul:thats about philosphy
FeuerTanzer2004: you really are in for a RUDE awakening
FeuerTanzer2004: thank you bong for letting me know that everything ive done has been for NOTHING
FeuerTanzer2004: I HATE YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: i meant NOTHING to you
FeuerTanzer2004: everytime you told me you LOVEd me you saw PAULS face
FeuerTanzer2004: IM FUCKING BETTER THAN HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: you made a fucking FOOOLL out of me
FeuerTanzer2004: im such and IDOIT
FeuerTanzer2004: I regret EVERY thing i ever did for you
FeuerTanzer2004: HOW CAN YOU LOOK ME IN THE FACE WHILE IM CRYING IN FRONT OF YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: when you love him
FeuerTanzer2004: THE PROBLEM WAS
FeuerTanzer2004: ILL FUCKING TELL YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you 100 percent of MY FUCKING HEART
FeuerTanzer2004: and you gave me FUCKING FIFTY
FeuerTanzer2004: because the other part belonged to HHHIIIIMMMM
FeuerTanzer2004: ALL THOSE TEARS
FeuerTanzer2004: ALL THOSE FUCKING TEARS I CRIED FOR YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: when you LOVED HHHIIIIMMMM
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish you would have cheated on me.
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish you would have been HONEST
FeuerTanzer2004: but you couldnt.
FeuerTanzer2004: I COULD HAVE FFFFUUUUCCCKKKKIIIINNGGGG HELPED YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: I WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: I HHHHHHAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEE YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: YOU LLLLIIIAAAARRRR
FeuerTanzer2004: your trash to me.
FeuerTanzer2004: your dead to me
FeuerTanzer2004: you made this FUCKING BED NOW LLLAAAAYYYY IN IT
FeuerTanzer2004: welcome to REAL life
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you EEEVVVEEERRYYTHING and you LIED to me!
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish i could have told you everything you didnt know. you really did let me cry to you..on you about how i would change about how i would make you happy when really nothing could except him.
FeuerTanzer2004: dont EVER ask about my daughter.
FeuerTanzer2004: she'll be with me
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope your happy with your discontent
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope there is enough ALCOHOL AND DRUGS in this world to make you happy
FeuerTanzer2004: because you can never replace what you have LOST
FeuerTanzer2004: we didnt INTERWIND you gave into me.
FeuerTanzer2004: YOU LIKED WHAT I LIKED YOU DID WHAT I DID AND EVERYTHING WAS WHAT I SAID.
FeuerTanzer2004: when you lost your VOICE was when i stopped loving you.
FeuerTanzer2004: but you dont care
FeuerTanzer2004: because HES THE ONE YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!!!!!
FeuerTanzer2004: BOOONNNGGG HES FUCKING STRAIGHT
FeuerTanzer2004: i had sex with you
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you my life
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you 100 percent
FeuerTanzer2004: and your the idiot who couldnt recognize that.
FeuerTanzer2004: its not about anything else except your GREED
FeuerTanzer2004: you CANT HAVE BOTH
FeuerTanzer2004: ITS ME OR HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: and since you choose him.
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope the two of you are very fucking happy even though you will be miserable.
FeuerTanzer2004: i remember when you SKIPPED out on thanksgiving dinner with MY FUCKING FAMILY
FeuerTanzer2004: BECAUSE YOU WERE WATCHINGA MOVIE WITH HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: THAT YOU TRIED TO SHOW TO ME
Auto response from stellarcemetery: me:you watching the superbowl?
paul:have you ever heard me ever mention sports
me:I heard about how you cut yourself with a machete
paul:thats about philosphy
FeuerTanzer2004: now your angry
FeuerTanzer2004: now you can begin to know my pain.
FeuerTanzer2004: i have half a mind to im that bitch and tell him what its really about.
FeuerTanzer2004: because i have nothing left to loose.
FeuerTanzer2004: smile bong.
FeuerTanzer2004: this is the life you choose.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i hope to god it makes you happy
FeuerTanzer2004: ic. since you dont want to talk.. next time hes online ill talk to him.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know is sn.
FeuerTanzer2004: please.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im obnoxious.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im too much.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im crazy.
FeuerTanzer2004: THEN LOOK AT YOUR SELF AND ASK IF IT ISNT THE TRUTH!!!!!
FeuerTanzer2004 is away at 3:20:18 AM.
FeuerTanzer2004 returned at 3:20:32 AM.
stellarcemetery: you are drunk
stellarcemetery: I know paul is straight you son of a bitch
stellarcemetery: I can't help but laugh
stellarcemetery: I'm not in love with paul anymore because he IS straight
stellarcemetery: paul knows this as well
stellarcemetery: and umm I put that away message up at random because I went to go take a shower
stellarcemetery: so I hope you're fucking happy for looking like a complete douchebag
stellarcemetery: good night adam
FeuerTanzer2004: march fucking fifth
FeuerTanzer2004: 2007
FeuerTanzer2004: I blindly and willingly followed him. I can't help but still follow him. He's the one person in this world who I can't say no to. My love for him is like a child's love to their parents. I want his approval more than anything. I want him more than anything. But I can't have him. I never will. He's my last trial. He'll always be the one who I see before I stare into the eternal darkness.
FeuerTanzer2004: now call me a drunk lair again.
stellarcemetery: fine
stellarcemetery: I used to love him, but I'm not delusional
stellarcemetery: I know I'm never gonna have him
FeuerTanzer2004: but hes the one you want more than anything
FeuerTanzer2004: even though i gave everything to you
stellarcemetery: yeah
FeuerTanzer2004: thank you bong.
stellarcemetery: and you can't change that
stellarcemetery: thanks fro breaking into my livejournal account
stellarcemetery: this just proves how crazy you are
FeuerTanzer2004: its true.
FeuerTanzer2004: i am.
FeuerTanzer2004: but it also proves that you love him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and you always have.
FeuerTanzer2004: and you always will.
stellarcemetery: oh my fucking god, I know I can never have him. I love him as one of my best friends
FeuerTanzer2004: right.
FeuerTanzer2004: thats why you went on about him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i got two lines.
stellarcemetery: No Adam, you can't fucking bring up shit about something I posted IN PRIVATE.
stellarcemetery: yeah you got two lines
stellarcemetery: because you deserved it
stellarcemetery: and this provbes why you deserve it
stellarcemetery: because you're a fucking douche bag
stellarcemetery: breaking into my livejhournal account?!
stellarcemetery: why?
FeuerTanzer2004: because i still love you. as stupid as it sounds and as much as your angry and as much as im crazy... i went on there and you deleted me from your friends. and i went to your page and it said it was all private. i was like hell. why not.
FeuerTanzer2004: but dont worry.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know your done.
FeuerTanzer2004: and now i think i know i am too.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i will never do it again.
FeuerTanzer2004: because now i have clarity.
FeuerTanzer2004: and closure.
stellarcemetery: good
stellarcemetery: you need it
FeuerTanzer2004: thats right bong. your so strong and im such a woman.
FeuerTanzer2004: your as fucking weak as i am.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and you dont know what you want.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and im a blunt bitch and ill tell you that.
FeuerTanzer2004: thats why we get along
stellarcemetery: this is nothing I haven't figured out
FeuerTanzer2004: because your the cuter one and im the crazy one.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and regardless you know im there for you just like you know im there for you. there is so much ive done and sacrificed that you dont see and i dont expect you too.
FeuerTanzer2004: just like im sure you hurt much more than you let on.
FeuerTanzer2004: you want so badly to be tough.
FeuerTanzer2004: but your hurt.
FeuerTanzer2004: and confused.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i know.
FeuerTanzer2004: but it doesnt make it right.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: i could never lie to you. i may not always be forwar but i could never lie. i love you bong. i have since i meet you. and it hard. and its rough. and i know you have your own battles to deal with. and you know i have mine. but what we did best want call each other out. you always tell me when im being an asswhole and i always tell you when your being a crude bitch.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i dont know whats taking me so long to get over this.
FeuerTanzer2004: my heart is still a hundred percent. but my brain is not. and the last time i followed my heart i didnt work out so well. as you know. so now i dont know what to do.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know sara loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know suzie loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know nina loves me.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know billy loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know ryan loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i HATE josh
FeuerTanzer2004: but thats no secret
FeuerTanzer2004: so im sure you can understand.
FeuerTanzer2004: do you know that mommy wants to call you really badly. everyday. because she still wants to be your friend. and shes getting married to steve
FeuerTanzer2004: who is gay.
FeuerTanzer2004: and if you told her she would believe.
FeuerTanzer2004: jmo and tempus only hate you because of what i have become without you.
stellarcemetery: first of all, tempus has always hated me
FeuerTanzer2004: tempus is one person.. the GARBERS are two.
FeuerTanzer2004: andrew has always hated me
FeuerTanzer2004: michael warmed up towards the end
stellarcemetery: second of all, I'm pretty sure ty hate me
FeuerTanzer2004: who
FeuerTanzer2004: jmo.. that fickle bitch.
FeuerTanzer2004: she only hates seeing me cry
FeuerTanzer2004: like i hated seeing her cry when jared broke up with her.
FeuerTanzer2004: but now i see him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and he came to her party even though everyone hated him and everyone knows he cheated on her two years ago.
FeuerTanzer2004: but i saw the BALLS it took for him to do that.
FeuerTanzer2004: and really. even though she hates it. out of all of the boys she has ever been with. i like jared.
stellarcemetery: what does that have to do with us
FeuerTanzer2004: im not sure. i got on a tangent.
FeuerTanzer2004: but anyways.
stellarcemetery: adam I'm gonna block you
stellarcemetery: I can't take this shit anymore
stellarcemetery: I've had enough good bye
stellarcemetery: don't ever call me
FeuerTanzer2004: goodbye bong.
stellarcemetery: or aim me
stellarcemetery: or text me
stellarcemetery: or fucking myspace message me
stellarcemetery: what you
stellarcemetery: 're doing is horrible
stellarcemetery: for both of us
stellarcemetery: good bye
FeuerTanzer2004: there is no more us.
FeuerTanzer2004: you killed that.
stellarcemetery: fine it's horrible for me and for you
stellarcemetery: especially you
FeuerTanzer2004 signed off at 3:42:38 AM.
Here's a little gift.
FeuerTanzer2004: i fucking love how your away message is about paul. i HATE you. thank you for letting me know that our ENTIRE relationship was a lie because your heart belonged to that STRAIGHT boy. you could have told me. your trash to me for LYING to my face everytime you tole me you loved me.
Auto response from stellarcemetery: me:you watching the superbowl?
paul:have you ever heard me ever mention sports
me:I heard about how you cut yourself with a machete
paul:thats about philosphy
FeuerTanzer2004: you really are in for a RUDE awakening
FeuerTanzer2004: thank you bong for letting me know that everything ive done has been for NOTHING
FeuerTanzer2004: I HATE YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: i meant NOTHING to you
FeuerTanzer2004: everytime you told me you LOVEd me you saw PAULS face
FeuerTanzer2004: IM FUCKING BETTER THAN HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: you made a fucking FOOOLL out of me
FeuerTanzer2004: im such and IDOIT
FeuerTanzer2004: I regret EVERY thing i ever did for you
FeuerTanzer2004: HOW CAN YOU LOOK ME IN THE FACE WHILE IM CRYING IN FRONT OF YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: when you love him
FeuerTanzer2004: THE PROBLEM WAS
FeuerTanzer2004: ILL FUCKING TELL YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you 100 percent of MY FUCKING HEART
FeuerTanzer2004: and you gave me FUCKING FIFTY
FeuerTanzer2004: because the other part belonged to HHHIIIIMMMM
FeuerTanzer2004: ALL THOSE TEARS
FeuerTanzer2004: ALL THOSE FUCKING TEARS I CRIED FOR YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: when you LOVED HHHIIIIMMMM
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish you would have cheated on me.
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish you would have been HONEST
FeuerTanzer2004: but you couldnt.
FeuerTanzer2004: I COULD HAVE FFFFUUUUCCCKKKKIIIINNGGGG HELPED YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: I WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: I HHHHHHAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEE YOU
FeuerTanzer2004: YOU LLLLIIIAAAARRRR
FeuerTanzer2004: your trash to me.
FeuerTanzer2004: your dead to me
FeuerTanzer2004: you made this FUCKING BED NOW LLLAAAAYYYY IN IT
FeuerTanzer2004: welcome to REAL life
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you EEEVVVEEERRYYTHING and you LIED to me!
FeuerTanzer2004: i wish i could have told you everything you didnt know. you really did let me cry to you..on you about how i would change about how i would make you happy when really nothing could except him.
FeuerTanzer2004: dont EVER ask about my daughter.
FeuerTanzer2004: she'll be with me
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope your happy with your discontent
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope there is enough ALCOHOL AND DRUGS in this world to make you happy
FeuerTanzer2004: because you can never replace what you have LOST
FeuerTanzer2004: we didnt INTERWIND you gave into me.
FeuerTanzer2004: YOU LIKED WHAT I LIKED YOU DID WHAT I DID AND EVERYTHING WAS WHAT I SAID.
FeuerTanzer2004: when you lost your VOICE was when i stopped loving you.
FeuerTanzer2004: but you dont care
FeuerTanzer2004: because HES THE ONE YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!!!!!
FeuerTanzer2004: BOOONNNGGG HES FUCKING STRAIGHT
FeuerTanzer2004: i had sex with you
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you my life
FeuerTanzer2004: i gave you 100 percent
FeuerTanzer2004: and your the idiot who couldnt recognize that.
FeuerTanzer2004: its not about anything else except your GREED
FeuerTanzer2004: you CANT HAVE BOTH
FeuerTanzer2004: ITS ME OR HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: and since you choose him.
FeuerTanzer2004: i hope the two of you are very fucking happy even though you will be miserable.
FeuerTanzer2004: i remember when you SKIPPED out on thanksgiving dinner with MY FUCKING FAMILY
FeuerTanzer2004: BECAUSE YOU WERE WATCHINGA MOVIE WITH HIM
FeuerTanzer2004: THAT YOU TRIED TO SHOW TO ME
Auto response from stellarcemetery: me:you watching the superbowl?
paul:have you ever heard me ever mention sports
me:I heard about how you cut yourself with a machete
paul:thats about philosphy
FeuerTanzer2004: now your angry
FeuerTanzer2004: now you can begin to know my pain.
FeuerTanzer2004: i have half a mind to im that bitch and tell him what its really about.
FeuerTanzer2004: because i have nothing left to loose.
FeuerTanzer2004: smile bong.
FeuerTanzer2004: this is the life you choose.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i hope to god it makes you happy
FeuerTanzer2004: ic. since you dont want to talk.. next time hes online ill talk to him.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know is sn.
FeuerTanzer2004: please.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im obnoxious.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im too much.
FeuerTanzer2004: tell me im crazy.
FeuerTanzer2004: THEN LOOK AT YOUR SELF AND ASK IF IT ISNT THE TRUTH!!!!!
FeuerTanzer2004 is away at 3:20:18 AM.
FeuerTanzer2004 returned at 3:20:32 AM.
stellarcemetery: you are drunk
stellarcemetery: I know paul is straight you son of a bitch
stellarcemetery: I can't help but laugh
stellarcemetery: I'm not in love with paul anymore because he IS straight
stellarcemetery: paul knows this as well
stellarcemetery: and umm I put that away message up at random because I went to go take a shower
stellarcemetery: so I hope you're fucking happy for looking like a complete douchebag
stellarcemetery: good night adam
FeuerTanzer2004: march fucking fifth
FeuerTanzer2004: 2007
FeuerTanzer2004: I blindly and willingly followed him. I can't help but still follow him. He's the one person in this world who I can't say no to. My love for him is like a child's love to their parents. I want his approval more than anything. I want him more than anything. But I can't have him. I never will. He's my last trial. He'll always be the one who I see before I stare into the eternal darkness.
FeuerTanzer2004: now call me a drunk lair again.
stellarcemetery: fine
stellarcemetery: I used to love him, but I'm not delusional
stellarcemetery: I know I'm never gonna have him
FeuerTanzer2004: but hes the one you want more than anything
FeuerTanzer2004: even though i gave everything to you
stellarcemetery: yeah
FeuerTanzer2004: thank you bong.
stellarcemetery: and you can't change that
stellarcemetery: thanks fro breaking into my livejournal account
stellarcemetery: this just proves how crazy you are
FeuerTanzer2004: its true.
FeuerTanzer2004: i am.
FeuerTanzer2004: but it also proves that you love him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and you always have.
FeuerTanzer2004: and you always will.
stellarcemetery: oh my fucking god, I know I can never have him. I love him as one of my best friends
FeuerTanzer2004: right.
FeuerTanzer2004: thats why you went on about him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i got two lines.
stellarcemetery: No Adam, you can't fucking bring up shit about something I posted IN PRIVATE.
stellarcemetery: yeah you got two lines
stellarcemetery: because you deserved it
stellarcemetery: and this provbes why you deserve it
stellarcemetery: because you're a fucking douche bag
stellarcemetery: breaking into my livejhournal account?!
stellarcemetery: why?
FeuerTanzer2004: because i still love you. as stupid as it sounds and as much as your angry and as much as im crazy... i went on there and you deleted me from your friends. and i went to your page and it said it was all private. i was like hell. why not.
FeuerTanzer2004: but dont worry.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know your done.
FeuerTanzer2004: and now i think i know i am too.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i will never do it again.
FeuerTanzer2004: because now i have clarity.
FeuerTanzer2004: and closure.
stellarcemetery: good
stellarcemetery: you need it
FeuerTanzer2004: thats right bong. your so strong and im such a woman.
FeuerTanzer2004: your as fucking weak as i am.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and you dont know what you want.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and im a blunt bitch and ill tell you that.
FeuerTanzer2004: thats why we get along
stellarcemetery: this is nothing I haven't figured out
FeuerTanzer2004: because your the cuter one and im the crazy one.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: and regardless you know im there for you just like you know im there for you. there is so much ive done and sacrificed that you dont see and i dont expect you too.
FeuerTanzer2004: just like im sure you hurt much more than you let on.
FeuerTanzer2004: you want so badly to be tough.
FeuerTanzer2004: but your hurt.
FeuerTanzer2004: and confused.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i know.
FeuerTanzer2004: but it doesnt make it right.
stellarcemetery: ok I agree
FeuerTanzer2004: i could never lie to you. i may not always be forwar but i could never lie. i love you bong. i have since i meet you. and it hard. and its rough. and i know you have your own battles to deal with. and you know i have mine. but what we did best want call each other out. you always tell me when im being an asswhole and i always tell you when your being a crude bitch.
FeuerTanzer2004: and i dont know whats taking me so long to get over this.
FeuerTanzer2004: my heart is still a hundred percent. but my brain is not. and the last time i followed my heart i didnt work out so well. as you know. so now i dont know what to do.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know sara loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know suzie loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know nina loves me.
FeuerTanzer2004: i know billy loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i know ryan loves me
FeuerTanzer2004: i HATE josh
FeuerTanzer2004: but thats no secret
FeuerTanzer2004: so im sure you can understand.
FeuerTanzer2004: do you know that mommy wants to call you really badly. everyday. because she still wants to be your friend. and shes getting married to steve
FeuerTanzer2004: who is gay.
FeuerTanzer2004: and if you told her she would believe.
FeuerTanzer2004: jmo and tempus only hate you because of what i have become without you.
stellarcemetery: first of all, tempus has always hated me
FeuerTanzer2004: tempus is one person.. the GARBERS are two.
FeuerTanzer2004: andrew has always hated me
FeuerTanzer2004: michael warmed up towards the end
stellarcemetery: second of all, I'm pretty sure ty hate me
FeuerTanzer2004: who
FeuerTanzer2004: jmo.. that fickle bitch.
FeuerTanzer2004: she only hates seeing me cry
FeuerTanzer2004: like i hated seeing her cry when jared broke up with her.
FeuerTanzer2004: but now i see him.
FeuerTanzer2004: and he came to her party even though everyone hated him and everyone knows he cheated on her two years ago.
FeuerTanzer2004: but i saw the BALLS it took for him to do that.
FeuerTanzer2004: and really. even though she hates it. out of all of the boys she has ever been with. i like jared.
stellarcemetery: what does that have to do with us
FeuerTanzer2004: im not sure. i got on a tangent.
FeuerTanzer2004: but anyways.
stellarcemetery: adam I'm gonna block you
stellarcemetery: I can't take this shit anymore
stellarcemetery: I've had enough good bye
stellarcemetery: don't ever call me
FeuerTanzer2004: goodbye bong.
stellarcemetery: or aim me
stellarcemetery: or text me
stellarcemetery: or fucking myspace message me
stellarcemetery: what you
stellarcemetery: 're doing is horrible
stellarcemetery: for both of us
stellarcemetery: good bye
FeuerTanzer2004: there is no more us.
FeuerTanzer2004: you killed that.
stellarcemetery: fine it's horrible for me and for you
stellarcemetery: especially you
FeuerTanzer2004 signed off at 3:42:38 AM.