all i need is somewhere i can feel the grass beneath my feet
i want to go to the ocean
and i want it to be summer and to run around my house in a bathing suit with all the doors open and air flowing in and out and tanning with sarah and i want to buy lots of skirts and flip flops. i want josh back so we can go to the promenade and he'll complain about mosquitos everywhere, even though no one else ever gets bitten but him. i want free time all the time and hanging out barely ever and sunglasses that look good and look stupid and everything is messy and broken promises that don't matter anyway. I want losing contact and finding it again and working at a job i LOVE and lots and lots of oranges. I want to be 4 shades darker and i want to throw out my makeup because it doesn't match me anymore. i don't want january and i don't want appalachian and i don't want cold or chunky jackets or being cold and sad. i want to go camping. i want to not feel the weight of the world, and i'm selfish and i'm sorry in advance. i want beck and blur. i want to forget anything bad and remember everything good and i want everything interesting and no revenge. i want new problems and i want to work more and make more money. i want someone to clean my room with me. i want to not be stubborn. i want to meet someone and call them the funniest person i've ever met, and i want to keep doing that because i always want to laugh. i want to be completely obsessed in something again.
whenever i'm up too late i post too many entries.
and i want it to be summer and to run around my house in a bathing suit with all the doors open and air flowing in and out and tanning with sarah and i want to buy lots of skirts and flip flops. i want josh back so we can go to the promenade and he'll complain about mosquitos everywhere, even though no one else ever gets bitten but him. i want free time all the time and hanging out barely ever and sunglasses that look good and look stupid and everything is messy and broken promises that don't matter anyway. I want losing contact and finding it again and working at a job i LOVE and lots and lots of oranges. I want to be 4 shades darker and i want to throw out my makeup because it doesn't match me anymore. i don't want january and i don't want appalachian and i don't want cold or chunky jackets or being cold and sad. i want to go camping. i want to not feel the weight of the world, and i'm selfish and i'm sorry in advance. i want beck and blur. i want to forget anything bad and remember everything good and i want everything interesting and no revenge. i want new problems and i want to work more and make more money. i want someone to clean my room with me. i want to not be stubborn. i want to meet someone and call them the funniest person i've ever met, and i want to keep doing that because i always want to laugh. i want to be completely obsessed in something again.
whenever i'm up too late i post too many entries.