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so the weekend was pretty good. drinking lots of beer and lots of truth or dare!. but man it was so hot down there. THe hang overs ive been getting lately are killing me though. i dont get much of teh headaches. just the stomach aches and the major depression. I hate it....after may 24 i wanted to die..today wasnt as bad but still bad. but sometimes it seems to linger on, longer then a hangover would. I also think im one of those unlucky ones whose side effect of the pill is depression,hopfeully change in medication adn the shot my doctor is giving me this week will make it better. I guess all the drama and lies and secrets that are going on could be a cause of this too, but i dont think it would bother me as much normally. Today was teh first meeting at teh camp and everyone was so nice and it seems like it will be a good time and we even made a craft! ha. but im still like wow im not gonna make much money at all, im such a loser, everyone is making so much more money. I know i will enjoy this so much more then zellers but im jsut like wow i have enough educatino to get paid more then this.I wish i had a job in my field sooooo bad. IM so afraid for the future. OH well. me and phil can be in it together since hes in biomedtox too and hes work at mcds his whole life till doing maintenance this summer, so no science experience for him yet either. OH well.. I miss phil a lot too. I talked to him tonight and hopefully our plans to see eachother in a few weeks works out. Hes an awesome friend. I talked to him about the crappy stuff thats been going on and even thoguh he claims hes no good at giving advice he is and he always seems to make me feel better! blah ihave to sleep coz i got no sleep this weekend and i ahve to work at zelelrs in the morning. at least its a day shift but man its so hard to bring myself to go into that store, goodt hing a bunch of my freinds are still there...i used to love zellers so much when the whole zcrew was tehere...there was like 30 of us literally..thats nuts....fuck i need my breakthrough job