A reminder to self
The crap in my head is pretty bad at the moment and the other day I found myself questioning why I still fight and wanted to just give up. I've been fighting this thing since I was twelve and sometimes I just get so, so tired of fighting and I just want it all to stop. When the bad days outweigh the good it's hard to remember why it's worth fighting and it is just so much easier to give up.
But today is one of those days that reminds me why.
I've just taken a walk in the sunshine along the river with good music blasting in my ears and it reminded me that the world is a beautiful place to be. People were milling around smiling, laughing, enjoying being alive. New sculptures have appeared around town and I stopped to look at them, appreciate them and the art, imagination and skill that went into creating them and watched other people enjoy them, talk about them, interact with them.
I had a silly chat with the guy in the newsagent which made us both laugh; a shared joke with a stranger on a sunny day.
This is why I fight and I'm putting this here as a reminder to myself for the next time I think I can't see a way out or a reason why. Today and all the coming days like this are why.
But today is one of those days that reminds me why.
I've just taken a walk in the sunshine along the river with good music blasting in my ears and it reminded me that the world is a beautiful place to be. People were milling around smiling, laughing, enjoying being alive. New sculptures have appeared around town and I stopped to look at them, appreciate them and the art, imagination and skill that went into creating them and watched other people enjoy them, talk about them, interact with them.
I had a silly chat with the guy in the newsagent which made us both laugh; a shared joke with a stranger on a sunny day.
This is why I fight and I'm putting this here as a reminder to myself for the next time I think I can't see a way out or a reason why. Today and all the coming days like this are why.