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You know what I want?
I wish that people at HHS actually took the initiative to get to know me and took their heads out of their asses. I'm tired of feeling that just because it's my first year with all of them, I'm not good enough. I hate how they ALL go somewhere and I'm NEVER invited. even when I'm with them when they make plans, am I asked? No. Even the people there that are supposed to be my friends, the ones I knew before I actually got there don't act like "friends." How many times have I sat in the cafeteria with people, yet been completley ignored by all of them? I look at all of them, and they all of these AMAZING friendships-like nothing could ever tear them apart. Than, theres me. Just standing off into the shadows, being overlooked by all the laughter and smiles. I might as well be invisible, because that's how it feels.
That's really the reason why I want to go to Arts, because I think I'll fit in better there. Which is probably a total joke, considering that all of my friends there have their own lives now. Their own perogative. Nothing will ever be the same again, no matter how hard we try. I'm just always going to be the misfit. No one is ever going to want to take a chance on me again, and that's the truth.