4 days of 'Singlehood'
It is the 'curse' of the one year. Or so I thought.
In summary, even though you are in a relationship, you have to be yourself. My personality and projections might have been too strong, thus offsetting the balance in my love life (it is the same for my past relationship - singular). I will become the dominating party in the relationship, and things slide downhill. Nothing will seem interesting, and when the flow is not what I expected, I snapped. It is like a hunger for power in relationship. In fact, the power struggle actually created a distance.
It is just like running round the track. I can always see the start and the end point. Just that after a long run, it gets exhausting and the end seems to be so far away. Just need to push on, and continue this race. Giving up now is just a call out to the universe to "let me run again, in future". So, who can guarentee that I can reach the ending line? Only myself. The way through is simply just to accept that this is part of the race. Face up with the challenge, and trust that I have the what it takes to endure to the finish line.
This is the flow for me. The 4 days of singlehood enhanced my self-awareness. Seriously, I will want to push through to the finishing line for this race, and prepare myself for the next. The "Family" race seems to be in the lineup of "events".
I think it is a blessing for my current relationship.
Love
JZ
In summary, even though you are in a relationship, you have to be yourself. My personality and projections might have been too strong, thus offsetting the balance in my love life (it is the same for my past relationship - singular). I will become the dominating party in the relationship, and things slide downhill. Nothing will seem interesting, and when the flow is not what I expected, I snapped. It is like a hunger for power in relationship. In fact, the power struggle actually created a distance.
It is just like running round the track. I can always see the start and the end point. Just that after a long run, it gets exhausting and the end seems to be so far away. Just need to push on, and continue this race. Giving up now is just a call out to the universe to "let me run again, in future". So, who can guarentee that I can reach the ending line? Only myself. The way through is simply just to accept that this is part of the race. Face up with the challenge, and trust that I have the what it takes to endure to the finish line.
This is the flow for me. The 4 days of singlehood enhanced my self-awareness. Seriously, I will want to push through to the finishing line for this race, and prepare myself for the next. The "Family" race seems to be in the lineup of "events".
I think it is a blessing for my current relationship.
Love
JZ