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[jonsieman]

It's a curious thing. Usually I am either more rational or more emotional, one part of me letting the other rule for a while until it is the other's turn. However the most...powerful...times are when during either of the two obvious exceptions. When my rational mind and my emotional mind are working in sinc I feel enlightened and growing, and I view all the world as being beautiful, and I see that beauty reflected back on me and the ones around me. But when my emotional mind are working simultaniously, but indipendently, this is the time I feel the most lost, the most unconnected with the world around me...like I'm sinking into something else with only a shallow bond left to all I have learned. Maybe it works the other way around, and how I feel emotionally decides how I feel my mind is matching up. I don't know which, but either way it is curious.

I apoligize from the depths of my heart to everyone I've hurt. And I hope with all my heart I never hurt those of you who I haven't...but I feel this might be a futal hope.

Peace&love my friends.

Jonsie