bliiiieee...
eeghhhhhhot girls at ucla i'm not interested in.taken trojan girls that I am.two (presumed) dead cats at home resulting in an intense desire to adopt from the local animal shelter but landlords do not approve.wondering if the word "cathartic" isn't one of the moods on livejournal because everyone would use it or because its not a mood.wanting to write and not having the time to, or at least telling myself that I really should but feeling wary about forcing anything.the teaches of peaches.meeting the producer/cowriter of Xmen and being invited to the Transformers set in the spring.a visceral reprise of peerless Fatboy Slim's "Right Here, Right Now" as I speed down a mountainside freeway towards Los Angeles at the end of work on Saturday.I give a pint of blood and 2000 miles away my sister faints-people who think God doesn't exist are a fucking joke.being 4 feet behind Warren G and filming him as he sways with his audience.using the words "I'm with MTV" to get access and not lying.getting so crocked I ask a stranger where her "water closet" is.reuben and one dollar ice cream sandwiches with fun people.writing livejournal entries on important nights-fuck it the only people dumber than film students are film students that spend more money on grad school.but, watching Nosferatu with a live accompanist in a dark theatre.realizing that almost every time I'm absorbed by an abstract painting it's a Picasso.exchanging (too?) smug threats with Marc during the ASU game and sitting wrapt listening to the radio in a parking lot for the last hour.buying my dad a fucking ninja sword for his birthday-you pay extra for one that's fucking.Jared never talks to me and is probably gonna move out.but I just heard from Sarah Saunders, hope I get to hang out with her in a normal context one day.that movie Pat and I are BTSing on now stars Jim Caviezel and possibly Walken-we would interview both.wondering if I amplify my life in memory and reality doesn't hold a candle to it.but having drunken conversation about language with cool motherfucker Hal then reading the same basic concept in an Eisenstein essay two days later.ideas that do not naturally go together cannot be processed logically, yet produce a deeply visceral response, like the phrase "a purple hum" (see previous).this is especially cool with the English language which is full of nonsensical collisions between different language families.celebrating the fact that we found the idea before the school injected it into our heads (by two days).but feeling lonely that so few people get excited about stuff like that and I so rarely get excited about the stuff people usually get excited about.but at least its cooling down and I can close my windows