May 04, 2007 10:15
I really don't feel myself at the moment.
I have my full time job that is surely slowly hurting my soul. I want nothing more then to spend time away from typing and people on phones.
To enjoy a day of silence. I don't think I will get the opportunity to do that any time soon.
I just feel rushed all the time. I hate having to get up early and stay up late. I hate getting 4 hours sleep and spending the whole day semi conscious.
It makes my day drag slowly.
This lack of sleep is really going to start harming me.
I am at a point where a serious period of turmoil is on the horizon.
There will be packing and moving and sorting, crying, hugging, driving and sleeping.
Its not looking good. I want nothing more than to buy a PS3 to lift my mood.
"I work all the time and get no sleep, I feel unwell and unfit, I should buy a PS3, that should fix everything"
I know that sounds stupid but its how I would usually deal with the situation but having never been here before I am sure that that is a route best taken by someone else.
I just cant seem to deal with this daily grind. The weekends seem shorter and shorter, mostly because I am sleeping for more and more of it.
Its beginning to get me down and I feel like everyone thinks I have life under control.
I don't think so...