Sucking Pig
Why Hello Friends,
Life has been pretty steady lately. Ive been working A LOT at Rat's and making some bank that will help me in my imminent move to New York City in ?? Months.
My mom has made it clear that she is not ready for me to move out of the house yet. So its a little strange looking for work since I can't really start yet. Actually that's not true at all, I can commute until Mom feels better about things.
On to the job search!
I should have my own little .com up soon to help me find work. Online portfolio type deal.
Going to the local Hamilton bars is really boring. I enjoy the company of my friends at work, but I'd much rather just chill with them at someone's apartment then that loud shithole. I do miss the parties because it felt like there was a party all time (noah).
Im really enjoying editing the Best Thing Ever's tour doc but its been really hard to have the energy in the little amount of time I have to work on it along with doing that shit for my reel and website. This is literally all my life is right now. I got to see David, KT, Kabeer and Jess recently which was really nice as always and we watched a HILARIOUS movie:
Grandma's Boy. Go watch it.
Im having these random moments of realization that i'll never see my Dad again. I don't let them get very far because I never feel like its the right time to reflect on it. Makes me think I never really let it come through, which is what i was thinking the whole time amidst all the praise of how well I handled this all.
This is still utterly confusing, but the best way I see it is that Im mixing my vision of death as natural and cyclical and all that Buddhist/Zen stuff and at the same time I'm in denial. I really hope its not just all the latter. I don't wont to be that disconnected with my own emotions. But I might be.
We'll see.
Life has been pretty steady lately. Ive been working A LOT at Rat's and making some bank that will help me in my imminent move to New York City in ?? Months.
My mom has made it clear that she is not ready for me to move out of the house yet. So its a little strange looking for work since I can't really start yet. Actually that's not true at all, I can commute until Mom feels better about things.
On to the job search!
I should have my own little .com up soon to help me find work. Online portfolio type deal.
Going to the local Hamilton bars is really boring. I enjoy the company of my friends at work, but I'd much rather just chill with them at someone's apartment then that loud shithole. I do miss the parties because it felt like there was a party all time (noah).
Im really enjoying editing the Best Thing Ever's tour doc but its been really hard to have the energy in the little amount of time I have to work on it along with doing that shit for my reel and website. This is literally all my life is right now. I got to see David, KT, Kabeer and Jess recently which was really nice as always and we watched a HILARIOUS movie:
Grandma's Boy. Go watch it.
Im having these random moments of realization that i'll never see my Dad again. I don't let them get very far because I never feel like its the right time to reflect on it. Makes me think I never really let it come through, which is what i was thinking the whole time amidst all the praise of how well I handled this all.
This is still utterly confusing, but the best way I see it is that Im mixing my vision of death as natural and cyclical and all that Buddhist/Zen stuff and at the same time I'm in denial. I really hope its not just all the latter. I don't wont to be that disconnected with my own emotions. But I might be.
We'll see.