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god i hate myself. Leave it to me to fuck up everything. Wesley took that birthday thing personally, and thought that i didnt want to do what we had planned with her and now shes upset, and on top of that she doesnt think that im trying to change because...i dont know why, she just sais that it doesnt look like im trying and i really am. Now shes mad at me or something. Well she didnt say she was, but if i was her i would be mad at me. God i hate myself. I dont understand why i have to be such a fuck up. I dont know what to do with myself. Ill go think about it.....