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today has been up and down, good and bad. I started out the day stressed, then got better, then wesley got stressed. But, i decided to give her space and let her work it out for herself. I guess it worked, i just really wish i could be there for her when she needs me. i love her so much, and i am sooo lucky to have a GREAT gf like her. But, in other news, tommorow im going to drink chalky radioactive shit and there going to follow it through my insides till i piss it out. So, im going to be there for a couple of hours. Hopefully ill make it to school. Then on friday, im going to be at the cardiologist, on heart and brain monitors, and their going to spin me around, upside down and what not. So yeah, im hoping that they wont find anything wrong with me there, because ive been weighing my options. If i need heart or brain surgery, im just going to say fuck them, cause its not worth it. Ill try and get over it on my own and see if that works. Truth be known, im scared to death of surgery. BUt, ill cross that bridge when i come to it. btw, jake, if your reading this, make sure that matthew cooper has his shit done tommorow after service. Thankyou.