Electric heart, Jongyu, NC-17
Title: Electric heart (sequel to Fi Hagat)
Rating: NC-17
Author: letsflywannabe
Genre: smut, romance
Word count: 3027
Summary: Jonghyun decides to confront Jinki, and make him understand the only way he knows how.
Author’s note: This should be read before in order to fully understand this story, but this story can also be read on its own as well. I couldn’t leave the angst by itself! I had to write a sequel ^.^ ~
Italics are thoughts.
Jonghyun screamed his lungs out and held his head in his hands. He couldn’t believe it. What had he done to deserve Jinki leaving like this? A note? He breaks up with a note? Not even face to face?? The rational part of his mind reminded him painfully, He did wait for you. He must have assumed you didn’t care…Jonghyun couldn’t think straight. His legs felt weak; he held onto a lamppost to steady himself. Pain wound itself around his heart, and anger began to seep into his mind and strengthened his resolve. It’s not over, Jinki. I’m not letting you go without a goddamn fight! I fought too hard and long for you to let you go now…or ever.
Jonghyun never usually displayed it, but he was intensely possessive of Jinki to the point where it physically hurt to see Jinki with anyone else. But Jonghyun knew that Jinki would feel fearful of him, trapped like a bird whose wings have been clipped. Jonghyun loved Jinki too much to hurt him in any way, so he never showed his jealousy. Although Kibum was always informed of every new friend of Jinki’s, and how Joon hyung would hold his Jinki in a particular way, and did Kyuhyun hyung really have to lean so close to his Jinki?
Jonghyun needed to find Jinki and let him know that the inspiration for him to do his best came from Jinki, that the face he pictured when he sang romantic songs was Jinki’s, that he never woke up without seeing Jinki’s face before his eyes, and wanted to see Jinki’s face as the last thing before he fell asleep. Jonghyun sighed and rubbed his tired eyes.
Back at the SHINee dorm, Jinki was busy explaining their latest schedule to the rest of SHINee (minus Jonghyun of course) in the kitchen. No one missed Jinki’s puffy, red-rimmed eyes. Or how he had stopped making his obscure jokes (“no one finds it funny, hyung!”), and despite everyone and their mother asking what was wrong, Jinki merely said he was ill. Jonghyun came into the dorm, slamming the door on his way in, drawing everyone’s attention.
His brown eyes were flat, devoid of the usual sparkle of mischief and affection (if he was gazing at Jinki, which he almost always was). He walked up to Jinki and said, “Onew hyung. We need to talk. Now.” Jinki winced and faltered in his gaze and looked away from Jonghyun’s, and replied, “Not now, Jonghyun-a - ah. We’re going over the schedules-” Jonghyun growled. “Onew, I SAID NOW!” The other members quickly scattered (“er, I think we should all go to the Suju hyungs’ dorms. We’ll be safer there.”, “But what about Jinki-hyung?”, “Ah, he’ll be fine. It’s about time he and Jonghyun talked about this anyway. Jinki-hyung told none of us what’s wrong, so maybe he’ll tell Jonghyun.”) and left the dorm, making various laughable excuses. Jonghyun rolled his eyes and dragged a stunned Jinki into the living room.
Jonghyun faced Jinki. He looked at Jinki with a measured gaze; his hands crossed across his chest and said, “Onew hyung. Am I that insignificant to you that you couldn’t even wait until I showed up? What if I had a legitimate excuse for being late? Like, oh I don’t know, maybe I was late because I wanted to buy you something? Or maybe I was in a car crash and was unable to -” Jinki couldn’t stand anymore and covered Jonghyun’s mouth with his hand, tears making their way down his face. Jonghyun’s eyes widened and he began “Hyung, what-”, before Jinki cut him off. “I can somehow stand you not loving me anymore, Jonghyun-ah,” Jinki’s voice broke, but he pushed himself to continue, “but the thought that - that - something had happened to you - I couldn’t - I just-”
Jinki’s knees gave way as he openly sobbed, thinking of the various scenarios running through his mind. The mere thought of anything happening to Jonghyun terrified him so much, he couldn’t help but cry. He began to wheeze as his chest tightened in panic, and Jonghyun became alarmed and grabbed Jinki and pulled him close. “Onew - Jinki-ah. It’s okay, I’m here, I’m right here. Hush…” Jonghyun stroked through Jinki’s silken hair and hummed a lullaby. Jinki calmed himself down and held tightly to Jonghyun. “Please Jonghyun-ah.” Jonghyun hugged him closer.
They sat there peacefully, intertwined until Jonghyun asked, “Jinki hyung. Why don’t you talk to me anymore? Is it because I’ve not been paying much attention to you recently? You know that’s only because of Immortal Song, right? I - you - do you even love me anymore?” Jonghyun held Jinki at arm’s length and lowered his head, his fringe covering his eyes. Jinki felt remorse creep up on him, and colour his face red. He felt like a complete idiot. Why did he do this, again? Jinki mentally face-palmed. Because he doesn’t show you he loves you, that’s why, fool. Oh yeah. That.
Jinki looked at Jonghyun, with tears clinging to his lashes, and replied, “Jonghyun-ah, when was the last time you said you loved me, just because? Or hugged me? Or kissed me in front of everyone? When was the last time we snuck out without informing anyone?” Jinki smiled sadly as Jonghyun’s eyes had a light of understanding. “How could I feel that you loved me? Just because you liked blowing me? Or because I helped you get off? I began to feel that you were only with me because you felt bad for me. Because I was pitiable. Or that you were afraid to tell me you had fallen out of love with me because of SHINee and because of my feelings.” Jinki hung his head sadly, tears falling once again. “I decided to put you of your misery once and for all.”
Jonghyun was upset. "Jinki-ah, how was I supposed to know any of this?” at this, Jinki looked appalled, but Jonghyun continued, “How was I supposed to understand what you feel if you never tell me about it? Or talk to me?” Jinki realised, with an uncomfortable clench of his stomach, that indeed he had never spoken to Jonghyun. Sure, he had tried, but not actually got across his message. “I’ve always made you the centre of my universe, I always stood up for our relationship, hell I even fought against my parents because I love you,” Jinki’s heart constricted at Jonghyun’s words, and Jonghyun went on, “…is it too much to ask you to tell me how you feel? To let me know?” Jinki bowed his head in shame. Communication is the key to a successful relationship Jinki remembered his mother telling him one day. When a couple loses the ability to talk to each other, then misunderstanding will take the place of love… Jinki was quiet. He understood but the price he had paid was extremely high. Jinki sighed and stood, facing away from Jonghyun, placing his fluttering hands inside his pockets. “I should have said something, Jonghyun-ah. I’m sorry I’ve hurt you. I - I - I hope you wo - won’t think t - too badly of me.” Jinki said in a small voice, and began to walk away. Jonghyun leapt up in a second; he grabbed Jinki and pushed him up against the wall. “Where are you going? Why are you leaving me? I - thought - I thought we - talked - what - I don’t understand. Why are you leaving me again?” Jinki looked at Jonghyun, tears clinging to his lashes. He took a deep breath and said, between hiccoughs, “Jonghyun-ah…aren’t you tired of loving someone like me? I’m - I’m setting you free. So - so you can love someone wh -who doesn’t hurt you a - all the time.” Jonghyun was devastated. How was he to prove to Jinki he still loved him and him only? Jonghyun placed his arms on either side of Jinki’s head and pressed his forehead against Jinki, who automatically leaned closer. “Jinki-ah…how can I prove to you I still love you? What do I need to do? Tell me. Whatever it is, I’ll do it, so long as you will stay by my side.” Jonghyun drew Jinki in for a tender kiss. Jinki felt like he was floating, like his heart had been lightened of a heavy burden. Jonghyun-ah…
They pulled away for air, and Jonghyun's eyes darkened to a liquid black. The sheer need for Jinki coiled tight in his stomach and tense muscles and consumed him. "This was not what I had in mind, but alright." Jinki looked up at him, brown eyes glazed over with lust, lower lip caught between his teeth, and Jonghyun couldn't help himself. He was on Jinki in a second, kissing him as if his life depended on it. Jinki's eyes automatically closed as he relaxed into Jonghyun's insistent kiss with a sigh, and Jonghyun's fingers came to rest in Jinki's silky hair, adjusting Jinki so as to kiss him deeper. Jonghyun demanded entrance to Jinki's yielding mouth and Jinki willingly complied with a soft moan that nearly made Jonghyun want to take Jinki there and then. Jonghyun kissed Jinki like he owned him, body and soul and Jinki kissed back with as much, if not more, fervour. Lust burned through Jinki's veins and made him weak-kneed; it was Jonghyun pushing him against the wall that had him upright, all the while running his hands over the smooth, supple planes of Jinki’s chest in circles. They let out simultaneous moans as their lower halves brushed each other; it was like an electric shock.
Jonghyun pulled back from Jinki, who let out a frustrated whine. "Jinki hyung. Hyung. Maybe w- we should th- think about thi- ah..", Jonghyun began before being cut off as Jinki unconsciously ground up against him. Jonghyun grabbed Jinki's hips and stilled him, resting his forehead on Jinki's. "Hyung please listen to me." Jinki looked up at Jonghyun and Jonghyun…was lost for words. Jinki looked...ravished. Hair tousled, chocolate eyes darkened and glazed over and cherry-red lips that looked bruised from kissing. Jinki looked like pure sex and Jonghyun let out a tiny groan as he forced himself to continue what he was saying. “Jinki hyung. I - I don’t want - what I mean to say is - A - are you sure you want to c - continue this? Because I won’t be able to h - ho - ah, hold myself back later on”, a difficult feat considering Jinki was grinding up against him. Jinki pulled Jonghyun closer, and framed his face with one hand, lightly caressing his nape with the other. “Jonghyun-ah, I love you. I want you Jonghyun-ah. I…need you. So, so much that it drives me crazy. I thought - I thought you were…tired of loving me, tired of us. I - I was wrong, Jonghyun-ah. I’m so sorry. ”Jonghyun stilled his wandering hands. Jinki looked up, fearful that Jonghyun would reject him and gasped. Jonghyun’s warm brown eyes had turned into liquid pools of love. Jonghyun leaned closer to Jinki, his breath fanning his ear as he said, “Jinki I’ve loved you for so long. I have only ever loved you. How could you ever think I could ever tire of loving you …”, and Jonghyun’s voice broke. At his words, Jinki felt a shudder run down his spine and regret twist his heart. He pulled Jonghyun close and kissed him, one hand in his soft hair. But this kiss was nothing like their previous kisses; it was languorous, burning slowly, making Jinki feel Jonghyun’s passion all the way down to his toes, which curled in delight. Jonghyun pulled away, making Jinki whimper slightly, and Jonghyun chuckle. “I want to do this properly, Jinki-ah. I want to take my time with you, and make love to you leisurely. I want you to feel that I will never ever tire of loving you, Jinki-ah. ” Jonghyun finished leaving a little kiss under Jinki’s ear. Jinki groaned at his words and sluggishly nodded his head, as Jonghyun lifted him and took him to their room.
Jonghyun undressed Jinki first and then himself slowly, to the point where Jinki growled in annoyance and tried to speed up the process. Jonghyun halted his movements, caught Jinki’s hands and pinned them above his head. “Ah, ah Jinki-ah. That won’t do. We have all the time in the world to enjoy each other, why are you so hasty?” Jonghyun murmured as he kissed the tip of Jinki’s hip and up his chest, reaching dusky nipples that stood out against Jinki’s fair chest. Jonghyun made eye-contact with Jinki and lightly sucked a nipple, and using one hand to caress the other. Jinki was lost in a haze of desire; he couldn’t understand where he ended and Jonghyun began. He moaned sensually and felt like he could cum at that moment, as he watched Jonghyun delicately suckling on his nipples and panted when Jonghyun stopped, chest heaving with every breath. Jonghyun hovered over him, uncertainty in his eyes and Jinki felt the weight of what they were about to do sink into him. Strangely he was calmer than before, the burning fervour of passion cooled to a simmering flame. He pulled Jonghyun closer and in a husky whisper said, “Jonghyun-ah. Make me scream.”
Every nerve ending of Jonghyun’s body seemed to become electrified and every muscle tightened, as he closed the distance between him and Jinki, and claimed his mouth. Jinki moaned into Jonghyun, which turned into little whimpers as Jonghyun slid a lube-covered finger into Jinki. Jonghyun kissed down Jinki’s neck, biting at his collar bone, as he added another finger and began stretching Jinki unhurriedly. Jinki gasped for air as Jonghyun brushed against something inside him. “Aa - aahn, Jong - hyun -ah. Th -there! Ah, th -there…” Jinki managed to whimper as Jonghyun smiled and aimed for the same place. He was rewarded with Jinki’s lovely mellifluous moans, and as he added the third finger, Jinki began to push himself on Jonghyun’s fingers. Jonghyun moaned as he watched Jinki impale himself desperately and growled, pulling his fingers out. Jinki looked up at Jonghyun; it felt as if time had stopped and all else had become the background, and Jonghyun filled his vision and his heart. Jinki pulled Jonghyun close and smelt the warmth of cinnamon and vanilla. “I trust you, Jonghyun-ah. I know you won’t hurt me.”
Jonghyun smiled radiantly and kissed Jinki lightly, as he pushed himself into Jinki slowly. Jinki pulled his mouth away from Jonghyun and wailed and tightened himself. Jonghyun rubbed circles on Jinki’s hip, and purred into Jinki’s ear, “Aegi, if you don’t relax, you won’t enjoy yourself. Let me in, aegi-ah…” Jinki groaned at Jonghyun’s words and tried to relax himself, Jonghyun aiding him by kissing him. Jinki keened as he felt something hit his prostate, and Jonghyun was frantically holding himself back from fucking Jinki senseless, as he watched Jinki’s back arch gracefully off the bed, his face screwed up in wanton pleasure. Jonghyun stopped his movements, at which Jinki let out a whine, wriggling and trying to pull Jonghyun further into himself. Jonghyun traced the outline of Jinki’s face, and gazed at him with so much love, Jinki felt as if he was looking into the Sun, and looked away. Jonghyun’s face immediately fell, and Jinki looked back at him and smiled. He caressed Jonghyun’s face fondly and pulled him close, a pleased flush spreading across his cheeks as he hid himself in Jonghyun’s chest. “Please Jonghyun-ah. Please…” Jonghyun smirked and murmured in a husky voice against Jinki’s neck, “Please what, aegi-ah? I can’t do anything unless you tell me exactly what you want.” Jinki squirmed, mortified. He was about to vehemently refuse, until… “Aaaah, Jonghyun-aah. Don’t stop, please. Fuck me, aaah…” Jinki’s voice cracked on the last syllable as Jonghyun suddenly moved inside him. Jonghyun smirked smugly, “Oops. Sorry. What was that? I couldn’t hear you ~” he singsonged. Jinki growled, “Jonghyun-ah, fuck me senseless please!”
Jonghyun leaned closer into Jinki and murmured, “As you wish, aegi-ah…” and pushed himself in fully and pulled out almost completely. “I feel so full, Jonghyun -ah. Ah, please…don’t - stop…” Jinki sobbed as Jonghyun kept a steady rhythm, and buried himself in Jinki’s neck, marking every inch he could reach. “Are you close, aegi-ah?” Jinki wailed as Jonghyun thrust particularly deeply, and nodded. He reached between them and stroked Jinki’s length to the rhythm of his thrusts. Jinki moaned and Jonghyun whispered, “Aegi, come for me. I want to see you come undone; don’t hold anything back from me.” At his words, Jinki’s body tensed and he came, screaming Jonghyun’s name. Jonghyun followed shortly thereafter, and as he began to pull himself out, Jinki unconsciously tensed and held Jonghyun where he was. He looked up at Jonghyun, a warm, contented smile lighting his face and shyly said, “Jonghyun-ah. I - please stay inside me. At least until morning.” Jonghyun smiled and nodded, and relaxed his weight onto Jinki. He playfully bit Jinki’s ear and said, smirking, “I didn’t realise you had such a dirty mouth on you, aegi-ah.” Jinki blushed and lightly smacked Jonghyun. “Yah! I - why are you embarrassing me like this?!?” he whined and pouted. Jonghyun laughed, and wound his arms around Jinki’s waist. “Because you look beautiful when you blush, aegi-ah.”
Jonghyun suddenly turned serious and held Jinki’s face in his hands. “Aegi. I love you; I have always loved you and will always love you. I - please don’t ever leave me, aegi-ah…” Jonghyun looked stricken and Jinki was alarmed; he pulled Jonghyun close, wrapped his arms and said, “I love you too, Jonghyun-ah. I - I was not communicating properly. I should have -” Jonghyun cut him off “No we should have talked. I noticed something was wrong, but I just assumed you were tired.” Jinki looked regretful. Jonghyun rolled his eyes and kissed Jinki. “Aegi-ah. Let’s promise each other we’ll always tell each other if we have a problem, okay?” Jinki nodded vigorously. Jonghyun smiled affectionately at him, his eyes twinkling with happiness and relaxed into Jinki once again.
A few minutes later, Jonghyun said, “So aegi-ah. Ready for round 2?” ~
Author’s note 2: Hihihi I’m so embarrassed after writing this, I hope it was okay… >.<; And we’re studying reproduction now as well ;D It took me so long to finish this ;_; because I was being lazy ¬.¬ But I’ve finished it :'D As always, constructive criticism is greatly appreciated ^u^ and comments are very welcome too ^.^ ~ chu
Rating: NC-17
Author: letsflywannabe
Genre: smut, romance
Word count: 3027
Summary: Jonghyun decides to confront Jinki, and make him understand the only way he knows how.
Author’s note: This should be read before in order to fully understand this story, but this story can also be read on its own as well. I couldn’t leave the angst by itself! I had to write a sequel ^.^ ~
Italics are thoughts.
Jonghyun screamed his lungs out and held his head in his hands. He couldn’t believe it. What had he done to deserve Jinki leaving like this? A note? He breaks up with a note? Not even face to face?? The rational part of his mind reminded him painfully, He did wait for you. He must have assumed you didn’t care…Jonghyun couldn’t think straight. His legs felt weak; he held onto a lamppost to steady himself. Pain wound itself around his heart, and anger began to seep into his mind and strengthened his resolve. It’s not over, Jinki. I’m not letting you go without a goddamn fight! I fought too hard and long for you to let you go now…or ever.
Jonghyun never usually displayed it, but he was intensely possessive of Jinki to the point where it physically hurt to see Jinki with anyone else. But Jonghyun knew that Jinki would feel fearful of him, trapped like a bird whose wings have been clipped. Jonghyun loved Jinki too much to hurt him in any way, so he never showed his jealousy. Although Kibum was always informed of every new friend of Jinki’s, and how Joon hyung would hold his Jinki in a particular way, and did Kyuhyun hyung really have to lean so close to his Jinki?
Jonghyun needed to find Jinki and let him know that the inspiration for him to do his best came from Jinki, that the face he pictured when he sang romantic songs was Jinki’s, that he never woke up without seeing Jinki’s face before his eyes, and wanted to see Jinki’s face as the last thing before he fell asleep. Jonghyun sighed and rubbed his tired eyes.
Back at the SHINee dorm, Jinki was busy explaining their latest schedule to the rest of SHINee (minus Jonghyun of course) in the kitchen. No one missed Jinki’s puffy, red-rimmed eyes. Or how he had stopped making his obscure jokes (“no one finds it funny, hyung!”), and despite everyone and their mother asking what was wrong, Jinki merely said he was ill. Jonghyun came into the dorm, slamming the door on his way in, drawing everyone’s attention.
His brown eyes were flat, devoid of the usual sparkle of mischief and affection (if he was gazing at Jinki, which he almost always was). He walked up to Jinki and said, “Onew hyung. We need to talk. Now.” Jinki winced and faltered in his gaze and looked away from Jonghyun’s, and replied, “Not now, Jonghyun-a - ah. We’re going over the schedules-” Jonghyun growled. “Onew, I SAID NOW!” The other members quickly scattered (“er, I think we should all go to the Suju hyungs’ dorms. We’ll be safer there.”, “But what about Jinki-hyung?”, “Ah, he’ll be fine. It’s about time he and Jonghyun talked about this anyway. Jinki-hyung told none of us what’s wrong, so maybe he’ll tell Jonghyun.”) and left the dorm, making various laughable excuses. Jonghyun rolled his eyes and dragged a stunned Jinki into the living room.
Jonghyun faced Jinki. He looked at Jinki with a measured gaze; his hands crossed across his chest and said, “Onew hyung. Am I that insignificant to you that you couldn’t even wait until I showed up? What if I had a legitimate excuse for being late? Like, oh I don’t know, maybe I was late because I wanted to buy you something? Or maybe I was in a car crash and was unable to -” Jinki couldn’t stand anymore and covered Jonghyun’s mouth with his hand, tears making their way down his face. Jonghyun’s eyes widened and he began “Hyung, what-”, before Jinki cut him off. “I can somehow stand you not loving me anymore, Jonghyun-ah,” Jinki’s voice broke, but he pushed himself to continue, “but the thought that - that - something had happened to you - I couldn’t - I just-”
Jinki’s knees gave way as he openly sobbed, thinking of the various scenarios running through his mind. The mere thought of anything happening to Jonghyun terrified him so much, he couldn’t help but cry. He began to wheeze as his chest tightened in panic, and Jonghyun became alarmed and grabbed Jinki and pulled him close. “Onew - Jinki-ah. It’s okay, I’m here, I’m right here. Hush…” Jonghyun stroked through Jinki’s silken hair and hummed a lullaby. Jinki calmed himself down and held tightly to Jonghyun. “Please Jonghyun-ah.” Jonghyun hugged him closer.
They sat there peacefully, intertwined until Jonghyun asked, “Jinki hyung. Why don’t you talk to me anymore? Is it because I’ve not been paying much attention to you recently? You know that’s only because of Immortal Song, right? I - you - do you even love me anymore?” Jonghyun held Jinki at arm’s length and lowered his head, his fringe covering his eyes. Jinki felt remorse creep up on him, and colour his face red. He felt like a complete idiot. Why did he do this, again? Jinki mentally face-palmed. Because he doesn’t show you he loves you, that’s why, fool. Oh yeah. That.
Jinki looked at Jonghyun, with tears clinging to his lashes, and replied, “Jonghyun-ah, when was the last time you said you loved me, just because? Or hugged me? Or kissed me in front of everyone? When was the last time we snuck out without informing anyone?” Jinki smiled sadly as Jonghyun’s eyes had a light of understanding. “How could I feel that you loved me? Just because you liked blowing me? Or because I helped you get off? I began to feel that you were only with me because you felt bad for me. Because I was pitiable. Or that you were afraid to tell me you had fallen out of love with me because of SHINee and because of my feelings.” Jinki hung his head sadly, tears falling once again. “I decided to put you of your misery once and for all.”
Jonghyun was upset. "Jinki-ah, how was I supposed to know any of this?” at this, Jinki looked appalled, but Jonghyun continued, “How was I supposed to understand what you feel if you never tell me about it? Or talk to me?” Jinki realised, with an uncomfortable clench of his stomach, that indeed he had never spoken to Jonghyun. Sure, he had tried, but not actually got across his message. “I’ve always made you the centre of my universe, I always stood up for our relationship, hell I even fought against my parents because I love you,” Jinki’s heart constricted at Jonghyun’s words, and Jonghyun went on, “…is it too much to ask you to tell me how you feel? To let me know?” Jinki bowed his head in shame. Communication is the key to a successful relationship Jinki remembered his mother telling him one day. When a couple loses the ability to talk to each other, then misunderstanding will take the place of love… Jinki was quiet. He understood but the price he had paid was extremely high. Jinki sighed and stood, facing away from Jonghyun, placing his fluttering hands inside his pockets. “I should have said something, Jonghyun-ah. I’m sorry I’ve hurt you. I - I - I hope you wo - won’t think t - too badly of me.” Jinki said in a small voice, and began to walk away. Jonghyun leapt up in a second; he grabbed Jinki and pushed him up against the wall. “Where are you going? Why are you leaving me? I - thought - I thought we - talked - what - I don’t understand. Why are you leaving me again?” Jinki looked at Jonghyun, tears clinging to his lashes. He took a deep breath and said, between hiccoughs, “Jonghyun-ah…aren’t you tired of loving someone like me? I’m - I’m setting you free. So - so you can love someone wh -who doesn’t hurt you a - all the time.” Jonghyun was devastated. How was he to prove to Jinki he still loved him and him only? Jonghyun placed his arms on either side of Jinki’s head and pressed his forehead against Jinki, who automatically leaned closer. “Jinki-ah…how can I prove to you I still love you? What do I need to do? Tell me. Whatever it is, I’ll do it, so long as you will stay by my side.” Jonghyun drew Jinki in for a tender kiss. Jinki felt like he was floating, like his heart had been lightened of a heavy burden. Jonghyun-ah…
They pulled away for air, and Jonghyun's eyes darkened to a liquid black. The sheer need for Jinki coiled tight in his stomach and tense muscles and consumed him. "This was not what I had in mind, but alright." Jinki looked up at him, brown eyes glazed over with lust, lower lip caught between his teeth, and Jonghyun couldn't help himself. He was on Jinki in a second, kissing him as if his life depended on it. Jinki's eyes automatically closed as he relaxed into Jonghyun's insistent kiss with a sigh, and Jonghyun's fingers came to rest in Jinki's silky hair, adjusting Jinki so as to kiss him deeper. Jonghyun demanded entrance to Jinki's yielding mouth and Jinki willingly complied with a soft moan that nearly made Jonghyun want to take Jinki there and then. Jonghyun kissed Jinki like he owned him, body and soul and Jinki kissed back with as much, if not more, fervour. Lust burned through Jinki's veins and made him weak-kneed; it was Jonghyun pushing him against the wall that had him upright, all the while running his hands over the smooth, supple planes of Jinki’s chest in circles. They let out simultaneous moans as their lower halves brushed each other; it was like an electric shock.
Jonghyun pulled back from Jinki, who let out a frustrated whine. "Jinki hyung. Hyung. Maybe w- we should th- think about thi- ah..", Jonghyun began before being cut off as Jinki unconsciously ground up against him. Jonghyun grabbed Jinki's hips and stilled him, resting his forehead on Jinki's. "Hyung please listen to me." Jinki looked up at Jonghyun and Jonghyun…was lost for words. Jinki looked...ravished. Hair tousled, chocolate eyes darkened and glazed over and cherry-red lips that looked bruised from kissing. Jinki looked like pure sex and Jonghyun let out a tiny groan as he forced himself to continue what he was saying. “Jinki hyung. I - I don’t want - what I mean to say is - A - are you sure you want to c - continue this? Because I won’t be able to h - ho - ah, hold myself back later on”, a difficult feat considering Jinki was grinding up against him. Jinki pulled Jonghyun closer, and framed his face with one hand, lightly caressing his nape with the other. “Jonghyun-ah, I love you. I want you Jonghyun-ah. I…need you. So, so much that it drives me crazy. I thought - I thought you were…tired of loving me, tired of us. I - I was wrong, Jonghyun-ah. I’m so sorry. ”Jonghyun stilled his wandering hands. Jinki looked up, fearful that Jonghyun would reject him and gasped. Jonghyun’s warm brown eyes had turned into liquid pools of love. Jonghyun leaned closer to Jinki, his breath fanning his ear as he said, “Jinki I’ve loved you for so long. I have only ever loved you. How could you ever think I could ever tire of loving you …”, and Jonghyun’s voice broke. At his words, Jinki felt a shudder run down his spine and regret twist his heart. He pulled Jonghyun close and kissed him, one hand in his soft hair. But this kiss was nothing like their previous kisses; it was languorous, burning slowly, making Jinki feel Jonghyun’s passion all the way down to his toes, which curled in delight. Jonghyun pulled away, making Jinki whimper slightly, and Jonghyun chuckle. “I want to do this properly, Jinki-ah. I want to take my time with you, and make love to you leisurely. I want you to feel that I will never ever tire of loving you, Jinki-ah. ” Jonghyun finished leaving a little kiss under Jinki’s ear. Jinki groaned at his words and sluggishly nodded his head, as Jonghyun lifted him and took him to their room.
Jonghyun undressed Jinki first and then himself slowly, to the point where Jinki growled in annoyance and tried to speed up the process. Jonghyun halted his movements, caught Jinki’s hands and pinned them above his head. “Ah, ah Jinki-ah. That won’t do. We have all the time in the world to enjoy each other, why are you so hasty?” Jonghyun murmured as he kissed the tip of Jinki’s hip and up his chest, reaching dusky nipples that stood out against Jinki’s fair chest. Jonghyun made eye-contact with Jinki and lightly sucked a nipple, and using one hand to caress the other. Jinki was lost in a haze of desire; he couldn’t understand where he ended and Jonghyun began. He moaned sensually and felt like he could cum at that moment, as he watched Jonghyun delicately suckling on his nipples and panted when Jonghyun stopped, chest heaving with every breath. Jonghyun hovered over him, uncertainty in his eyes and Jinki felt the weight of what they were about to do sink into him. Strangely he was calmer than before, the burning fervour of passion cooled to a simmering flame. He pulled Jonghyun closer and in a husky whisper said, “Jonghyun-ah. Make me scream.”
Every nerve ending of Jonghyun’s body seemed to become electrified and every muscle tightened, as he closed the distance between him and Jinki, and claimed his mouth. Jinki moaned into Jonghyun, which turned into little whimpers as Jonghyun slid a lube-covered finger into Jinki. Jonghyun kissed down Jinki’s neck, biting at his collar bone, as he added another finger and began stretching Jinki unhurriedly. Jinki gasped for air as Jonghyun brushed against something inside him. “Aa - aahn, Jong - hyun -ah. Th -there! Ah, th -there…” Jinki managed to whimper as Jonghyun smiled and aimed for the same place. He was rewarded with Jinki’s lovely mellifluous moans, and as he added the third finger, Jinki began to push himself on Jonghyun’s fingers. Jonghyun moaned as he watched Jinki impale himself desperately and growled, pulling his fingers out. Jinki looked up at Jonghyun; it felt as if time had stopped and all else had become the background, and Jonghyun filled his vision and his heart. Jinki pulled Jonghyun close and smelt the warmth of cinnamon and vanilla. “I trust you, Jonghyun-ah. I know you won’t hurt me.”
Jonghyun smiled radiantly and kissed Jinki lightly, as he pushed himself into Jinki slowly. Jinki pulled his mouth away from Jonghyun and wailed and tightened himself. Jonghyun rubbed circles on Jinki’s hip, and purred into Jinki’s ear, “Aegi, if you don’t relax, you won’t enjoy yourself. Let me in, aegi-ah…” Jinki groaned at Jonghyun’s words and tried to relax himself, Jonghyun aiding him by kissing him. Jinki keened as he felt something hit his prostate, and Jonghyun was frantically holding himself back from fucking Jinki senseless, as he watched Jinki’s back arch gracefully off the bed, his face screwed up in wanton pleasure. Jonghyun stopped his movements, at which Jinki let out a whine, wriggling and trying to pull Jonghyun further into himself. Jonghyun traced the outline of Jinki’s face, and gazed at him with so much love, Jinki felt as if he was looking into the Sun, and looked away. Jonghyun’s face immediately fell, and Jinki looked back at him and smiled. He caressed Jonghyun’s face fondly and pulled him close, a pleased flush spreading across his cheeks as he hid himself in Jonghyun’s chest. “Please Jonghyun-ah. Please…” Jonghyun smirked and murmured in a husky voice against Jinki’s neck, “Please what, aegi-ah? I can’t do anything unless you tell me exactly what you want.” Jinki squirmed, mortified. He was about to vehemently refuse, until… “Aaaah, Jonghyun-aah. Don’t stop, please. Fuck me, aaah…” Jinki’s voice cracked on the last syllable as Jonghyun suddenly moved inside him. Jonghyun smirked smugly, “Oops. Sorry. What was that? I couldn’t hear you ~” he singsonged. Jinki growled, “Jonghyun-ah, fuck me senseless please!”
Jonghyun leaned closer into Jinki and murmured, “As you wish, aegi-ah…” and pushed himself in fully and pulled out almost completely. “I feel so full, Jonghyun -ah. Ah, please…don’t - stop…” Jinki sobbed as Jonghyun kept a steady rhythm, and buried himself in Jinki’s neck, marking every inch he could reach. “Are you close, aegi-ah?” Jinki wailed as Jonghyun thrust particularly deeply, and nodded. He reached between them and stroked Jinki’s length to the rhythm of his thrusts. Jinki moaned and Jonghyun whispered, “Aegi, come for me. I want to see you come undone; don’t hold anything back from me.” At his words, Jinki’s body tensed and he came, screaming Jonghyun’s name. Jonghyun followed shortly thereafter, and as he began to pull himself out, Jinki unconsciously tensed and held Jonghyun where he was. He looked up at Jonghyun, a warm, contented smile lighting his face and shyly said, “Jonghyun-ah. I - please stay inside me. At least until morning.” Jonghyun smiled and nodded, and relaxed his weight onto Jinki. He playfully bit Jinki’s ear and said, smirking, “I didn’t realise you had such a dirty mouth on you, aegi-ah.” Jinki blushed and lightly smacked Jonghyun. “Yah! I - why are you embarrassing me like this?!?” he whined and pouted. Jonghyun laughed, and wound his arms around Jinki’s waist. “Because you look beautiful when you blush, aegi-ah.”
Jonghyun suddenly turned serious and held Jinki’s face in his hands. “Aegi. I love you; I have always loved you and will always love you. I - please don’t ever leave me, aegi-ah…” Jonghyun looked stricken and Jinki was alarmed; he pulled Jonghyun close, wrapped his arms and said, “I love you too, Jonghyun-ah. I - I was not communicating properly. I should have -” Jonghyun cut him off “No we should have talked. I noticed something was wrong, but I just assumed you were tired.” Jinki looked regretful. Jonghyun rolled his eyes and kissed Jinki. “Aegi-ah. Let’s promise each other we’ll always tell each other if we have a problem, okay?” Jinki nodded vigorously. Jonghyun smiled affectionately at him, his eyes twinkling with happiness and relaxed into Jinki once again.
A few minutes later, Jonghyun said, “So aegi-ah. Ready for round 2?” ~
Author’s note 2: Hihihi I’m so embarrassed after writing this, I hope it was okay… >.<; And we’re studying reproduction now as well ;D It took me so long to finish this ;_; because I was being lazy ¬.¬ But I’ve finished it :'D As always, constructive criticism is greatly appreciated ^u^ and comments are very welcome too ^.^ ~ chu