i am not so hot
i dont know how to say this, but i need help, i need a familiar face, some comfort from home, some good memories. because right now i feel really low, and helpless to do anything to bring me back up. i have so much to do, and i procrastinate so much that it all piles up into a wall that i cant pass. i just want to give up and cry. i havent cried since the halloween incident, but i need a shoulder to cry on now. everyone seems to be doing well either socially, or scholastically, but i cant seem to figure either out. i am nice to everyone, but the return is a lack of interest (at least thats how i perceive it). i have stopped hanging out with people, i have retreated into a shell of depression and i need a hand to climb back out. i wont do anything stupid, but i just want to sleep for a while, like a month or two, just to remember what being relaxed felt like. i know its my own fault for procrastinating, and not being more social, and theirs no excuse i can honestly say will defend me, but i just want it all to be over. smoking black and milds makes me feel light headed, but the effect wares off to soon, and my money is slowly disappearing. please respond, someone i know help me feel better right now, i sure could use a helping hand.