death and destruction
we found this little kitten about a week ago. She was a feral cat completely lovable in every way possible. well she was a bit of annoying because she meowed a lot when she wanted attention and if you didn't give it to her right away all she would do is meow louder. today she got sick. I don't know how or what brought it on but she started having seizures. she couldn't move at all and after a while she would muster a tiny squeak of a meow. i couldn't afford to take her to the vet i don't have any money and we were planning on finding her a new home so some one who could afford it could take care of her. and after a while she was barely breathing... so i ended her suffering by suffocating her and i buried her in the front yard. i felt so horrible. i still feel horrible. i cried on and off for almost 2 hours. i feel like a monster. my boyfriend said that she was going to die anyways. but that doesn't make me feel any better. i think i care too much.