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ug. i'm so bored of being bored. no one ever wants to do anything. it's a friday and i've resigned myself to renting movies and reading. IT'S A FUCKING FRIDAY!!! and no one wants to do ANYTHING but drink. i'm not even gonna start with that tonite but i just want to get out and do something. seems like i had so much more to do when i was at home. granted all i ever really did was go to the movies, go bowling, and hang around with people at their different houses. but there was always stuff to do. maybe it's that i don't have anything to really focus on. no shows to rehearse for, no competitions to drill for, no new music to learn or dances to try and figure out. i'm breaking my own rules. i always thought that all the people that constantly say "i'm bored" when there was so much to do were just boring people. but now i find myself saying that i'm bored way more often than not just cuz there is nothing to do. or at least nothing that anyone is willing to do with me. there's only so much i can do by myself. movies: ok i'll do it myself, shopping: don't really need anyone with me, but there's just nothing else unless i wanted to start getting smashed all the time. i don't like this rut that i've found myself in. i want out and i want out now.