bah humbug
I'm more angry right now than I have been in months. I want to scream and never stop.
Frustrated.
Hurt and angry. and tired. so tired.
Other than my unhappiness, there is some other news. I had to go to a mandatory meeting today at work, but it wasn't really a meeting, it was a Christmas party. That was odd. For me anyway. I gave Linda a candle and she was so moved...I think she had tears in her eyes. I also brought a present to the Bead Gallery.....weird, but I felt good about it. There's a new girl there, about my age....but she can't measure up to me. It still hurts, a lot.
Christmas tomorrow. That was fast. My brother and his girlfriend, Tara, came by tonite. She's so sweet. I hope he treats her right cause she's good for him. He's grown up a lot(but far from completely).....
I smoke in front of my mom now, but not my dad. I think it'll be a while before that happens. Today I had to put up the fucking Christmas lights outside. I've been asking my father to do it for about 3 weeks now, but I guess that was too much to ask. I got really pissed off about half way through. I slammed all the doors on my way into the house and went to my room. He told me to come out and he started yelling about it. I said that if he didn't do HIS job and put up the lights, then he wouldn't eat Christmas dinner with us. He knew I was serious, so he finished it. Thats when my brother came by, we watched Indiana Jones, and tomorrow I think we're going to see Lord of the Rings 3.
Merry Christmas
Frustrated.
Hurt and angry. and tired. so tired.
Other than my unhappiness, there is some other news. I had to go to a mandatory meeting today at work, but it wasn't really a meeting, it was a Christmas party. That was odd. For me anyway. I gave Linda a candle and she was so moved...I think she had tears in her eyes. I also brought a present to the Bead Gallery.....weird, but I felt good about it. There's a new girl there, about my age....but she can't measure up to me. It still hurts, a lot.
Christmas tomorrow. That was fast. My brother and his girlfriend, Tara, came by tonite. She's so sweet. I hope he treats her right cause she's good for him. He's grown up a lot(but far from completely).....
I smoke in front of my mom now, but not my dad. I think it'll be a while before that happens. Today I had to put up the fucking Christmas lights outside. I've been asking my father to do it for about 3 weeks now, but I guess that was too much to ask. I got really pissed off about half way through. I slammed all the doors on my way into the house and went to my room. He told me to come out and he started yelling about it. I said that if he didn't do HIS job and put up the lights, then he wouldn't eat Christmas dinner with us. He knew I was serious, so he finished it. Thats when my brother came by, we watched Indiana Jones, and tomorrow I think we're going to see Lord of the Rings 3.
Merry Christmas