Jul 08, 2006 21:42
tdy i had an appt, which i cancelled. of someone close to me. d emotion in response to my cancellation : anger. i am not going to deal with it. for i have/am letting someone down.
why must everything happen? since the start of the holidays, i told everyone how happy i am. till the onset of the month of July. i had turned moody. i had many thoughts. do wat i preach? i preach for someone to not think too much. and wat m i doin? juz otherwise.
but my thoughts are somewat clearer. thou tat doesnt mean i am happy. for i am not. anyone close, will not be happy.
juz a thought. i went jogging earlier to expense some of the pent up energy from this emotional episode. when i am happy, nothing seems to make my day lousy. but when i am down, i hit rock bottom. right now, i guess i am there. mayb i'm like sadako. have started climbing out of the well. but it's a long climb.
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side note: i almost wanted to buy you durian puff for not being able to eat durian. sigh..