to tell you the truth...yeah i needed that....
damn nigga!!
locked up like an animal...
treated sub-humane...
to describe it in one word: atrocious
jail was fucking horrid....the only thing that kept me going was the thought of my friends and family who were waiting for me back home....what a reality check that turned out to be....nothing to do at night but think so...i did it alot...and i truly saw that this is not what i planned to be doing a couple of years ago....and it hurt, shocked and scared the shit out of me....
this has to be it....truly the end of all of the bullshit in my life....if not now, when? for me its always been about yesterday and tomorrow....i never take charge and do shit today now when it has to be done...."ill pay that bill tomorrow"..."ill clean that up tomorrow"....."remember when ___ happend"....."that was so great"..." i wish i could just go back to that time"....im just tired of being like that....it hurts me....
last thing.....i love you all so much...to tell you the truth i was shocked when i got the welcome back that i did...you guys are truly, truly great friends....i know we all say it all the time but i really mean it...you are like my family....we stick together no matter what...and to have those kind of friends is worth more than anything that money can buy....like the true meaning of life to me....
that just made me realize how stupid ive been with my i dont give a fuck about anything or anyone attitude that i know i put out sometimes....its just that sometimes it feels like i have no one there for me...like im lost and all alone....but you all truly proved me wrong....thanks so much for that....i also just want the best for you guys too...i hope that we can all pull our shit together and make something of ourselves other that fast-food wokers...but it sure is fucking fun....
much love to all: everyone of you have helped me realize what it is i need to do....grow the fuck up a little...
good night,
love,
Jonathon David Armour
(recently lip-ringless)
(and the fucking industrial i just spent $40 on the night before...bitches)
locked up like an animal...
treated sub-humane...
to describe it in one word: atrocious
jail was fucking horrid....the only thing that kept me going was the thought of my friends and family who were waiting for me back home....what a reality check that turned out to be....nothing to do at night but think so...i did it alot...and i truly saw that this is not what i planned to be doing a couple of years ago....and it hurt, shocked and scared the shit out of me....
this has to be it....truly the end of all of the bullshit in my life....if not now, when? for me its always been about yesterday and tomorrow....i never take charge and do shit today now when it has to be done...."ill pay that bill tomorrow"..."ill clean that up tomorrow"....."remember when ___ happend"....."that was so great"..." i wish i could just go back to that time"....im just tired of being like that....it hurts me....
last thing.....i love you all so much...to tell you the truth i was shocked when i got the welcome back that i did...you guys are truly, truly great friends....i know we all say it all the time but i really mean it...you are like my family....we stick together no matter what...and to have those kind of friends is worth more than anything that money can buy....like the true meaning of life to me....
that just made me realize how stupid ive been with my i dont give a fuck about anything or anyone attitude that i know i put out sometimes....its just that sometimes it feels like i have no one there for me...like im lost and all alone....but you all truly proved me wrong....thanks so much for that....i also just want the best for you guys too...i hope that we can all pull our shit together and make something of ourselves other that fast-food wokers...but it sure is fucking fun....
much love to all: everyone of you have helped me realize what it is i need to do....grow the fuck up a little...
good night,
love,
Jonathon David Armour
(recently lip-ringless)
(and the fucking industrial i just spent $40 on the night before...bitches)