blow.
so i think i am going to start doing cocaine. i think maybe if i do cocaine semi-regularly. that like... maybe it would imrpove my social skills. not to mention academic life. and i think it is possible it might even boost my confidence. my reasoning for this is that i decided the world is too fake. i think that under the influence of narcotics that numb my mind from having to deal with reality are much more real than you know. the fake reality... which i guess in reality. is. the real. reality. but that is besides the point. because when i am not on cocaine. i will just smoke weed. so i will be too high to have to deal with brain busting psychological equations such as what is real and not real... because again. reality is fake to me. now that i have come to this resolve. i think i am going to go take a line.. you know. graze some ice... fuck off.