im dont know what to do
well tonight we just went to dennys same ol same ol. im really not satisfied with my life at all. i am gonna attempt to quit smoking again. hopefully for good this time. i wish i was so in love and hung up on this certain someone. its been almost a year now ive felt this way. i dont know why i still do cuz ive already attempted to start something with her and it didnt go. she was crazy for someone else at the time. now was that a real reason or was it just being polite and tryin not to hurt me with the rejection. i think it was prolly just being polite cuz im not something anyone would wanna date. everyone just tells me to get over it but it aint as easy as it sounds. i wanna try and persue it again but i dont wanna make things awkward or get royally crushed again. well i think i am gonna go to bed and think about this for a lil while. later