spring in chicago
The weather here has been gorgeous lately. Yesterday and the day before were in the 70s. Today was cooler but still beautiful.
I talked to my grandma today, she was worried about me. It seems like everyone in my family sufferes from avoidance issues, including me. I wrote her a letter but then things got all crazy and I didn't let her know that I had to shut my phone off because it got lost.
Not much to report, I'm still saving up for surgery. I'm thinking about getting a second job since I tried to take out a loan and it didn't work. I should find a sugar daddy to cosign a loan for me. I don't want another year of binding. It hurts my back and my chest hair gets caught in the binder and pulls and hurts me. That and I feel disgusting. I'm ok with everything but my chest.
I slimmed down a lot while being in Omaha and can't seem to get the weight back. I'm anywhere between 115 and 120 but never more than 120. I still have a little beer gut though so I don't know what gives. Do situps actually work for making beer guts go away? I want to join a gym but I'm still nervous about the locker room since I still bind. Bah. I want to get muscles.
I have a cough right now that won't go away.
look, this is what i looked like when we lived in castro valley, california. wasn't i cute with my calculator watch?
and then here's me now.
I talked to my grandma today, she was worried about me. It seems like everyone in my family sufferes from avoidance issues, including me. I wrote her a letter but then things got all crazy and I didn't let her know that I had to shut my phone off because it got lost.
Not much to report, I'm still saving up for surgery. I'm thinking about getting a second job since I tried to take out a loan and it didn't work. I should find a sugar daddy to cosign a loan for me. I don't want another year of binding. It hurts my back and my chest hair gets caught in the binder and pulls and hurts me. That and I feel disgusting. I'm ok with everything but my chest.
I slimmed down a lot while being in Omaha and can't seem to get the weight back. I'm anywhere between 115 and 120 but never more than 120. I still have a little beer gut though so I don't know what gives. Do situps actually work for making beer guts go away? I want to join a gym but I'm still nervous about the locker room since I still bind. Bah. I want to get muscles.
I have a cough right now that won't go away.
look, this is what i looked like when we lived in castro valley, california. wasn't i cute with my calculator watch?
and then here's me now.