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How do I explain how I feel?
How do I say what runs through my mind?
Do I just write them down or do I just speak my mind?
These quetions and many more are in my head with out any answers
And I keep coming close to loosing control
And just letting things come out that I feel should not be said at this time.
I wanna hold the person that I care about yet I am afraid.
I wanna give her the first kiss of the relationship
Yet I don't know if it is the right time.
I am 23 years old and all I can do is act like a scared little school boy
Everytime I am around her.
Why must I be this way?
I have never been like this with any one that I have dated.
Of course this is mearly the third real relationship I have ever had.
The first relationship I became a father and it ended horrificaly.
The second she just could not deal with the way I am when I get around a group of people.
This one is distant and slow which causes me to respect her more for that reason.
The slowness is by far the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
This is also the first slow relationship that I have ever been in
And I am guessing that is why I am having so much trouble with expressing myself so soon.
I am afraid that too much too soon will blow every thing that is worth working for.
I beleive that I am just going to speak my mind next time we meet
So that she is not in the dark with how I feel about her.
That sounds like a very good idea. peace
How do I say what runs through my mind?
Do I just write them down or do I just speak my mind?
These quetions and many more are in my head with out any answers
And I keep coming close to loosing control
And just letting things come out that I feel should not be said at this time.
I wanna hold the person that I care about yet I am afraid.
I wanna give her the first kiss of the relationship
Yet I don't know if it is the right time.
I am 23 years old and all I can do is act like a scared little school boy
Everytime I am around her.
Why must I be this way?
I have never been like this with any one that I have dated.
Of course this is mearly the third real relationship I have ever had.
The first relationship I became a father and it ended horrificaly.
The second she just could not deal with the way I am when I get around a group of people.
This one is distant and slow which causes me to respect her more for that reason.
The slowness is by far the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
This is also the first slow relationship that I have ever been in
And I am guessing that is why I am having so much trouble with expressing myself so soon.
I am afraid that too much too soon will blow every thing that is worth working for.
I beleive that I am just going to speak my mind next time we meet
So that she is not in the dark with how I feel about her.
That sounds like a very good idea. peace