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I'm home till 1130 because of testing and it's become apparent that school is almost over. I dunno why, but that doesn't really seem as one of my concerns now, even though it has been. I dunno, maybe it'cuz it doesn't seem like it'll affect me that much, even though it will. Or that I want to get out of high school. Meh of course I want to get out of school, but of course I don't want to. Everything's easy and I don't have all these things to do. It's tight. I'm an "adult", but don't have to do all this shit. Call it whatever you want like being spoiled or some stupid shit, but it's tight. Meh, I don't want it to change. Even though school year's coming to a close, it doesn't seem like it is or anything. W/e. It does scare the shit out of me all this life thing and whatever. But it's chill. FJC makes me think I'm a joke of a person, but w/e. Summer is coming up and it better be fun or I'll be fucking pissed. Gonna go to Thailand with my family over summer. However never have fun on vacations with my family. I cannot spend that much time with my family because we don't do anything and my parents just annoy me cuz my mom's controlling and my dad goes along with everything. I think also going to Vegas, but for my sister's dance competition thing. So I'll be there and probably do nothing again. You can't do much in vegas even when you're eighteen. Especially without anyone else there. Who knows, maybe I'll meet someone really tight and we'll kick it the whole time. Meh, said the same thing on the cruise. I need a skill. An amazing talent that I can do to pass time. Like write an abundance of novels or paint an abundance of art things or write symphonies. Or even something like being good at... anything. I dunno. I want a new job. Fuck Papa John's. They're whack. It's lame. Fuck working at places on weekends and taking away your weekend. Fuck everything associated with that. In the desert I saw a creature, naked, bestial, who, squatting upon the ground, held his heart in his hands and ate of it. I said, "Is it good, friend?" "It is bitter-- bitter," he answered. "But I like it because it is bitter, and because it is my heart." Since summer's coming that means that beach and everything is also coming, which means that I must be in sexy shape as my mating call. I mean shit, if this whole going to the gym everyday thing doesn't work, then what the fuck will. Well I'm also dieting because I don't wanna be a fucking lard ass and because this tummy wants to be cute. Cute tummy= sexy. I think, I have no idea though. The leading theif stared at the solid stone that had swallowed Mort, and then threw down his knife. "Well ---- me," he said. "A ----ing wizard. I HATE ----ing wizards!" You shouldn,t ---- them then, then", muttered one of his henchmen, effortlessly pronouncing a row of dashes. I dunno, that's it. I've come to accept that I've lost my camera and have nothing to post of importance anymore. Or at least anything that's the least bit interesting. Doesn't mean that I won't post things that have no point and are boring. So w/e.