before I dose off,
I would like to express what I feel inside my heart right now. It has been a crucial start of the year since University plans haven't gone on how I wanted, but it's okay cause the Lord God has led me into a different pathway where I am given me a chance to study and become an Occupational therapist, a person that will help in giving independence to the mentally-illed people. This way, I'll become a sister that helps the people in rehabilitation in need. Thank God for miracles. On another hand, just recently a guy has found a way to make my heart beat again after for so many years. It's how I felt when I was in-love with Ley in the long past. Ley has been totally removed in my heart btw. :) and it has been replaced with Cleven. So in the start of my vacation here, I promised myself not to be entangled with any boys or men, since I know I'll be darn playing or just be played by these little cheating bastards, but Cleven stands out and differ from everybody. He might be a typical party boy, but he is a uber-charming, handsome, intelligent, and wise man that makes my heart race a million times which I cannot stop everytime he starts to shine his white smile at me. Despite the love in the air wrapping me around in this beautiful world, our fates have already been written. Cleven is planning to go abroad and tour the world as his job, whilst I study at New Zealand. Cleven will not be settling in a place, he'll be jumping from country to country which can only be a one-man job. I cannot tag along since I don't want him distracted from me, and I cannot imagine my life not settling in one country. I've already been depressed leaving my Philippine home from before, I won't be able to do that with NZ. (Well, I can if I go to Aussie). But yeah, it's gonna be a sacrifice to love Cleven. A sacrifice that I'm willing to do since I am emotionally, physically, mentally, sexually and spiritually attracted and in-love with my handsome Cleven. It's gonna be worth it, won't it?