sitting in my bed,

[jomdorleeen]

waiting for my tea to brew which complies to stop my craving for too much chocolate, which I have been drowning myself these past few summer days. A very bad move, I must say, as it is killing my balance diet, however I have to assure myself I do not gain weight as I don't wanna go back to "phatty tewen" by going dance practices to one of my peer's cotillion.  Other thoughts have come to mind as well. Like what to do in this three month long summer holiday that I'll be spending under the NZ sun for most months that I'll be here. Oh, I have not mentioned that my family and I are going to Cebu, Philippines for a month long holiday to join my joyous family in the festive celebration of Sinulog- my favourite yearly tradition festival in my whole life. so yes, I'll be finally uniting again with my dear cousins, auntie and my super lola this coming January 2011, which will be as awesome as last two years ago. :) YAY for that then! Another thought is what am I going to do while I wait for the day to fly back home to come- things such as have come to my inconstant mind set. * get a job somewhere (earn some cash to spend in Philly), *hang with my bestfriend as much as possible, sort out my study loan for next year since things have to be ready for next year's new starting life, tan my skin until i turn really really dark :P, and work out everyday?

ELABORATION ON MY THOUGHTS :

• get a job somewhere (earn some cash to spend in Philly) - Oh yes! I would like some cash to spend in Philippines, but I don't have the wil in my mind to get a responsibility at this moment ( LAZY MODE) as I am uber-dependent on mumma. Things financially might be a little bit rocky at this moment at home since so much money have been spent on my debut last August and on our plane tickets to Philippines, but I know in God's hand we will be okay.However in an honest and un-biased realisation of mine, I don't think employers will hire me at this time since everyone who's looked for a part-time job for the holidays have been already hired like what? last 2 months ago therefore I won't have a chance in getting, and since, I'll be away in no month's time, then I don't wanna get a job that I'd leave so fast and what if  I like to stay for long? so pretty much, my plan is do not get a JOB. but if ever, someone offers me a casual job just on DECEMBER, then hey! money here I come, I don't do anything, I'll do what it takes to earn some small cash. :)
• hang with my bestfriend as much as possible- yeah sure, as long as we don't fight all the time. I know arguments and misunderstandings/ miscommunications are bugging our friendship right now but hey isn't that part of everyday life. But I just wish everything is all good since everything is just not going into the right direction. One day he said, life is simple but we make things complicated. Well to me, I make my own life complicated. I don't know how I do it, but I just do. HA! no surprises there. Complicated such as Falling in love was hard, but staying in love is much harder. hmm. but yeah, I try my best to be a good friend to him, but i just am completely a mess.
• STUDY LOAN the sorting out of it is just an utter head ache. Thank god we only go through this process once. Oh yeah, hopefully I get an allowance approved. and I wish I get in to my dream University and course for next year's life. :)
• TAN my skin :) oh yes, i'm too white, i gotta get some colour in my epidermis.
• work out everyday, we will see how that will go.