Just a Thought
I am in the stage in my life, that ppl go thru in HS. Identity Crisis (if you follow Erik Erikson).
The only difference is that I like to think that I have infinite personality compatibility. I don't have any preconcieved notions of who I am and who i want to be. I just honestly don't know, and thats ok. Ill try out different things, the possibilities are endless. I can really basically do what I want with myself and act the way I want...as long as I strive to achieve my goals. (those of you who know me, know what they are). I really need to keep my eye on the ball and persevere to finsih what I set out to do. but as for the crowds I hang out with, my physical attributes (manipulations, not hereditary), and my personality, they are mine to decide. And that is what I am doing. i love my friends and I will not trade them, forsake them, or leave them. But insofar as who I am...its not really what you think.
because how can you know, when even I do not. I don't know who I am, I don't know my limits, I don't really know much about myself. I've been so focused on others, and helping them, that I left myself behind. I am finding that out slowly and am having a good time doing it. You all know me and my intellectual abilities, but as for my likes, dislikes, my curiosity with the paranormal, obscure, an forbidden you all know nothing. Those are things that i have so deeply buried and kept recessed, they are now only starting to emerge. I am a wierdo, I can admit it ...
Can you accept it?
The only difference is that I like to think that I have infinite personality compatibility. I don't have any preconcieved notions of who I am and who i want to be. I just honestly don't know, and thats ok. Ill try out different things, the possibilities are endless. I can really basically do what I want with myself and act the way I want...as long as I strive to achieve my goals. (those of you who know me, know what they are). I really need to keep my eye on the ball and persevere to finsih what I set out to do. but as for the crowds I hang out with, my physical attributes (manipulations, not hereditary), and my personality, they are mine to decide. And that is what I am doing. i love my friends and I will not trade them, forsake them, or leave them. But insofar as who I am...its not really what you think.
because how can you know, when even I do not. I don't know who I am, I don't know my limits, I don't really know much about myself. I've been so focused on others, and helping them, that I left myself behind. I am finding that out slowly and am having a good time doing it. You all know me and my intellectual abilities, but as for my likes, dislikes, my curiosity with the paranormal, obscure, an forbidden you all know nothing. Those are things that i have so deeply buried and kept recessed, they are now only starting to emerge. I am a wierdo, I can admit it ...
Can you accept it?