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I was thinking a lot about Danielle today and decided to read her journal, just to see whatse was up to and maybe leave a comment telling her about me joining the Navy. Well at the botton, the last entry on h epage is as follows:
Monday, December 13th, 2004
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10:05 pm - from sam
You can ask me 1 question.
Any one,
no matter how personal,
private, or random.
I have to answer it honestly.
In turn you have to post this
message in your own bulletin
and you have to answer the
question that are asked to you
and after reading how she is so in love with that new guy (who is really an old old friend) all i can think about asking is if she knew she would hook up with him after we broke up. But then sumthing pretty amazing happened. I realized I didnt care. See the whole thing was like a lose end in my life. I didn't really get a real, acceptable (at least to me) reason. And, as much as I didnt care about the relationship that much I did care about having a reason for it ending.
You see the whole thing got me thinking. Are we as humans really just slaves to our emotions and instincts. I mean why is sex such a big deal? Why did it somehwat bother me that this guy was doing her? Was it because of my animalistic possesive instincts? The Alpha male gets the females and thats the end of it. Did I want to fight this guy for the right to procreate with her.
I have now come to believe that we only like to think iof ourselves as better than the animals because we can reason, or use logic. The truth has struck me that more often than not we are unable to control ourselves (mostly when its really important) and then our "years of evolution" mean nothing. More often than not, we are ruled by our emotions, and we seek ways to escuse our behavior, like alcohol for example. I mean why else would we ever drink this mainly disgustinly bitter and harmful bevrage. Yes its true, a lot of people have grown to like it, but for the most part the first couple times you drank you didn't like the taste.
When will we be truly able to say that we are, without a doubt children of a higher mind, of reason and logic. Instead of being really an animal restrained only at times by a somewhat logical mind, that works mainly to have use remain acceptable with the public eye. Why is it that we do not even strive to attain perfection. We rationalize our failure at perfection by sayaing "we are only human". We quit b4 we even begin to try and reach it. Because to be perfect would be us inhuman. But what we dont ask is, why is that so bad? Why is it so bad to be emotionless. Because we as a society could not deal with it. And the reason we couldn't deal with it? Our emotions.
I don't know how to end this. I don't know which would be better. (being human or being perfect). Maybe its my emotions speaking but I dont see either as a solution, I don't even see a solution. Because while we rationalize failure we still expect perfection out of some. We expect perfection as much as we expect humanity. Its all so inconceivably confusing and I'm going to stop writing about it before I just start going in circles.
Monday, December 13th, 2004
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10:05 pm - from sam
You can ask me 1 question.
Any one,
no matter how personal,
private, or random.
I have to answer it honestly.
In turn you have to post this
message in your own bulletin
and you have to answer the
question that are asked to you
and after reading how she is so in love with that new guy (who is really an old old friend) all i can think about asking is if she knew she would hook up with him after we broke up. But then sumthing pretty amazing happened. I realized I didnt care. See the whole thing was like a lose end in my life. I didn't really get a real, acceptable (at least to me) reason. And, as much as I didnt care about the relationship that much I did care about having a reason for it ending.
You see the whole thing got me thinking. Are we as humans really just slaves to our emotions and instincts. I mean why is sex such a big deal? Why did it somehwat bother me that this guy was doing her? Was it because of my animalistic possesive instincts? The Alpha male gets the females and thats the end of it. Did I want to fight this guy for the right to procreate with her.
I have now come to believe that we only like to think iof ourselves as better than the animals because we can reason, or use logic. The truth has struck me that more often than not we are unable to control ourselves (mostly when its really important) and then our "years of evolution" mean nothing. More often than not, we are ruled by our emotions, and we seek ways to escuse our behavior, like alcohol for example. I mean why else would we ever drink this mainly disgustinly bitter and harmful bevrage. Yes its true, a lot of people have grown to like it, but for the most part the first couple times you drank you didn't like the taste.
When will we be truly able to say that we are, without a doubt children of a higher mind, of reason and logic. Instead of being really an animal restrained only at times by a somewhat logical mind, that works mainly to have use remain acceptable with the public eye. Why is it that we do not even strive to attain perfection. We rationalize our failure at perfection by sayaing "we are only human". We quit b4 we even begin to try and reach it. Because to be perfect would be us inhuman. But what we dont ask is, why is that so bad? Why is it so bad to be emotionless. Because we as a society could not deal with it. And the reason we couldn't deal with it? Our emotions.
I don't know how to end this. I don't know which would be better. (being human or being perfect). Maybe its my emotions speaking but I dont see either as a solution, I don't even see a solution. Because while we rationalize failure we still expect perfection out of some. We expect perfection as much as we expect humanity. Its all so inconceivably confusing and I'm going to stop writing about it before I just start going in circles.