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This week is not going as planned.
The first problem was my Sunday night. My final paper for Research Methods was due at 11:55pm, so I went to the lab around 8:00pm to start working - granted, I'd been doing a lot of analysis up to this point, but I needed to type it all up. I ended up working until 5:00am and turned in the paper at 5:07am and didn't sleep until 5:30-ish.
My sleeping patterns are basically non-existant right now; there's no "pattern" to speak of. That's no good. I've been waking up with big headaches and sore throats. And today I overslept by almost two hours; I made it to class ten minutes late without my homework done.
I keep biting this spot in my mouth. I did it the first time around 3:00am on Monday morning while eating super-salty cashews. I think I've bit the same place a dozen times now. A few minutes ago, I bit it again, so hard that my teeth hurt. This sucks.
We're having more prism issues. It's really hard being on a board of people that I really like and respect. That sounds strange, but it's hard to separate personal relationships from the things we need to do. There are so many times that I want to say things to people related to the organization, but I don't because of our personal relationships. Things need fixing. The semester's almost over and we'll get through whatever the current issues are, but, geez. We were supposed to be in the clear, everything was supposed to be set, and now, things are messy again.
I'm so tired. I think that's contributing to my attitude about life right now - I seem to be approaching things from the stance of a tired, cranky, confused, and cynical person. I'm tired of making decisions; I just want things to fall into my lap, set and planned. I want my hand to stop hurting. I want to know what I want from other people and why I want it and why it's okay to want that. I want to sleep. I want to cry. I want this semester to be over.
The first problem was my Sunday night. My final paper for Research Methods was due at 11:55pm, so I went to the lab around 8:00pm to start working - granted, I'd been doing a lot of analysis up to this point, but I needed to type it all up. I ended up working until 5:00am and turned in the paper at 5:07am and didn't sleep until 5:30-ish.
My sleeping patterns are basically non-existant right now; there's no "pattern" to speak of. That's no good. I've been waking up with big headaches and sore throats. And today I overslept by almost two hours; I made it to class ten minutes late without my homework done.
I keep biting this spot in my mouth. I did it the first time around 3:00am on Monday morning while eating super-salty cashews. I think I've bit the same place a dozen times now. A few minutes ago, I bit it again, so hard that my teeth hurt. This sucks.
We're having more prism issues. It's really hard being on a board of people that I really like and respect. That sounds strange, but it's hard to separate personal relationships from the things we need to do. There are so many times that I want to say things to people related to the organization, but I don't because of our personal relationships. Things need fixing. The semester's almost over and we'll get through whatever the current issues are, but, geez. We were supposed to be in the clear, everything was supposed to be set, and now, things are messy again.
I'm so tired. I think that's contributing to my attitude about life right now - I seem to be approaching things from the stance of a tired, cranky, confused, and cynical person. I'm tired of making decisions; I just want things to fall into my lap, set and planned. I want my hand to stop hurting. I want to know what I want from other people and why I want it and why it's okay to want that. I want to sleep. I want to cry. I want this semester to be over.