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I'm bored and I see Lika updating like mad ten times a day and that makes me wanna write something here.Although,I really have nothing interesting to say.
My school ends on the 18th of June and on the 21st I will find out my grades. -shakes- Boohoo...I don't want school to be over.I mean I know (or suppose) I've got a whole summer to have fun,see my best friends and stuff but...It's so strange.I'm going there and it's as I've never left!Life goes on and it does WITH me.My enemies keep hating me,they can't (just can't) forget me and when I come and they somehow find that out,try to make my life impossible.Pfft...So I spend my holidays there and what comes next? I don't wanna leave! It's so fucking difficult,I get used back to it so easily.Then I'll have to come back here and continue MY LIFE IN SPAIN.I mean that even sounds stupid!And I know that when I come back here I'm gonna miss Moscow and *that* life and I might even hate Spain then and say how everything sucks here and that I wish I have never moved to Spain...And that is not true.Not any more.It used to be,I was a sad and lonely girl last year but now,just because of one person I'm quite happy here.Not only because I really like him and he was my boyfriend,he made me change at the start of this year into being like I was.When he first saw me he said he doesn't believe I'm just a shy,innocent and good girl.I showed him I'm not,started to love life again and be happy.Can't believe I finally said that.Wow.
My school ends on the 18th of June and on the 21st I will find out my grades. -shakes- Boohoo...I don't want school to be over.I mean I know (or suppose) I've got a whole summer to have fun,see my best friends and stuff but...It's so strange.I'm going there and it's as I've never left!Life goes on and it does WITH me.My enemies keep hating me,they can't (just can't) forget me and when I come and they somehow find that out,try to make my life impossible.Pfft...So I spend my holidays there and what comes next? I don't wanna leave! It's so fucking difficult,I get used back to it so easily.Then I'll have to come back here and continue MY LIFE IN SPAIN.I mean that even sounds stupid!And I know that when I come back here I'm gonna miss Moscow and *that* life and I might even hate Spain then and say how everything sucks here and that I wish I have never moved to Spain...And that is not true.Not any more.It used to be,I was a sad and lonely girl last year but now,just because of one person I'm quite happy here.Not only because I really like him and he was my boyfriend,he made me change at the start of this year into being like I was.When he first saw me he said he doesn't believe I'm just a shy,innocent and good girl.I showed him I'm not,started to love life again and be happy.Can't believe I finally said that.Wow.