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May be ill give a real update..
So today, went to bed at 2am.. up all night studying for the Bio test that i had at 8 Am. Woke up at 6, to study a little bit for the test again. Took the test at 8.. im actually thinking that i did pretty good; however, when i think that i normally do bad, but it feels a little different. The whole situation just sux really. Not only was I wired during the test (because i drank a huge cup of cappacino when i woke up), but i hate geneitcs, and my future prety much depends on this test & my final. Basically, since im a fuck up, i have a 65% AGAIN in bio (since its my second time taking it...) and i need a C to stay in my major, or i have to keep retaking it. Well, if i dont get it the second time, im sure as hell not going to take it a 3rd time. So.. instead id rather bust my ass & slave over each test and know that each question ydetermines if i "pass" or not.. not to mention i have 50,000 other papers/projects to be doing right now, as im sure every other college student does.
Home in three weeks for summer break. Summer is going to be busy with work & class, but atleast i will FINALLY have my car back. Dont think im going anywhere, unles its to the beach or canada for like 3 days or so. For the first time i cant wait to get the hell out of here; but i decided while i was sitting here doing my chemistry homework (i dont know why i decided this then...) but its gonna suck leaving. Especially with how many of my friends are seniors. I think it sux worse then leaving high school. These people ive pretty much been around 24/7, see then whenever, do whatever with them when i want to.. so we all got so close so fast.. and im only around them a year.. as compared to the people i grew up with most of my life. This, really is going to be sad, especially when the same stuff is going to happen every single semester/year after this.
I have no idea where this year went.. seriously. It had its MAJOR downs and ups.. Ive never been so happy in my life.. but then again, ive never been so sad/helpless/depressed as i ever have been. Wow.. im an `effn retard lol.
oh yeah... contradict much? always keep your word.. yeah, hm ok!...ass
For those of you that care... Boy department? Hm. whats that?!?! Thats non existant. I plan on keeping it this way for a while since i seem to screw everything up? Always have with everything.. so im no longer trying. Yup, thats right this girl is giving up and in a way for the first time.. it doesnt feel so bad.
You know there's one thing that i STILL dont understand.. And completely blows my mind. how someone can be there for someone else, & would do practically anything for them, no matter what their past is, and still they are treated like crap. I just cant wait for the day, where there really is a time when someone will need that other person & they wont be there. Then hopefully that person would realize how damn stubborn they were & how much THEY messed up. Id give anything to have that ONE person there for me whenever. no matter what, & would do anything for me.
Welp, now that i got that out i think im gonna go work on some more homework, i freaken have enough to do.... GOSH!!!!
imdoneputtingeveryoneelsefirst.. thats it
So today, went to bed at 2am.. up all night studying for the Bio test that i had at 8 Am. Woke up at 6, to study a little bit for the test again. Took the test at 8.. im actually thinking that i did pretty good; however, when i think that i normally do bad, but it feels a little different. The whole situation just sux really. Not only was I wired during the test (because i drank a huge cup of cappacino when i woke up), but i hate geneitcs, and my future prety much depends on this test & my final. Basically, since im a fuck up, i have a 65% AGAIN in bio (since its my second time taking it...) and i need a C to stay in my major, or i have to keep retaking it. Well, if i dont get it the second time, im sure as hell not going to take it a 3rd time. So.. instead id rather bust my ass & slave over each test and know that each question ydetermines if i "pass" or not.. not to mention i have 50,000 other papers/projects to be doing right now, as im sure every other college student does.
Home in three weeks for summer break. Summer is going to be busy with work & class, but atleast i will FINALLY have my car back. Dont think im going anywhere, unles its to the beach or canada for like 3 days or so. For the first time i cant wait to get the hell out of here; but i decided while i was sitting here doing my chemistry homework (i dont know why i decided this then...) but its gonna suck leaving. Especially with how many of my friends are seniors. I think it sux worse then leaving high school. These people ive pretty much been around 24/7, see then whenever, do whatever with them when i want to.. so we all got so close so fast.. and im only around them a year.. as compared to the people i grew up with most of my life. This, really is going to be sad, especially when the same stuff is going to happen every single semester/year after this.
I have no idea where this year went.. seriously. It had its MAJOR downs and ups.. Ive never been so happy in my life.. but then again, ive never been so sad/helpless/depressed as i ever have been. Wow.. im an `effn retard lol.
oh yeah... contradict much? always keep your word.. yeah, hm ok!...ass
For those of you that care... Boy department? Hm. whats that?!?! Thats non existant. I plan on keeping it this way for a while since i seem to screw everything up? Always have with everything.. so im no longer trying. Yup, thats right this girl is giving up and in a way for the first time.. it doesnt feel so bad.
You know there's one thing that i STILL dont understand.. And completely blows my mind. how someone can be there for someone else, & would do practically anything for them, no matter what their past is, and still they are treated like crap. I just cant wait for the day, where there really is a time when someone will need that other person & they wont be there. Then hopefully that person would realize how damn stubborn they were & how much THEY messed up. Id give anything to have that ONE person there for me whenever. no matter what, & would do anything for me.
Welp, now that i got that out i think im gonna go work on some more homework, i freaken have enough to do.... GOSH!!!!
imdoneputtingeveryoneelsefirst.. thats it