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MAn oh man I havent updated in FOREVER!....
First things first, Michael and I are broken up. I just kinda felt like we would be better as friends. I kno we came off as SO happy and the perfect couple i guess...and we were..but yeah im just a complicated person lol.
So I just found out that my parents are seperated...but they just decided not to tell my brother and I. My dad doesnt want to leave my mom unless she can support herself and when they are ready. That may be in the next year or that may never happen. I found all this out last night and couldn't really control what I was thinking so I left. I went to Dut's with Jonas and my brother actually hugged me. We just sat there hugging and crying. I've never had such a bittersweet moment.
So..yeah that kinda explains why I wasn't in school today.
After cooling down and realizing that it isn't all my dad's fault that my parents' are seperating..I went with my dad to go see my grandma. I normally hate going there because I dont want to rememeber my grandma as a skinny, crazy woman who cant feed herself. I sat there watching my dad feed her mashed up food and it looked soooo unappitizing but hey as long as she eats. This woman that works at the nursing home watched me staring at my grandma. She came over and said I can tell your grandma was a good woman. And I just kept looking at my gma and said she was. It was like she was a baby all over again. She kept shaking, she was bleeding from inside her ear..I mean why can't god just understand that shes' ready to go? I hate to see her suffer like that.
So its valentines day. Yeah dont really have much to say about that. Wish I had that someone but hey my time will come haha.
Just stay optimistic right?
First things first, Michael and I are broken up. I just kinda felt like we would be better as friends. I kno we came off as SO happy and the perfect couple i guess...and we were..but yeah im just a complicated person lol.
So I just found out that my parents are seperated...but they just decided not to tell my brother and I. My dad doesnt want to leave my mom unless she can support herself and when they are ready. That may be in the next year or that may never happen. I found all this out last night and couldn't really control what I was thinking so I left. I went to Dut's with Jonas and my brother actually hugged me. We just sat there hugging and crying. I've never had such a bittersweet moment.
So..yeah that kinda explains why I wasn't in school today.
After cooling down and realizing that it isn't all my dad's fault that my parents' are seperating..I went with my dad to go see my grandma. I normally hate going there because I dont want to rememeber my grandma as a skinny, crazy woman who cant feed herself. I sat there watching my dad feed her mashed up food and it looked soooo unappitizing but hey as long as she eats. This woman that works at the nursing home watched me staring at my grandma. She came over and said I can tell your grandma was a good woman. And I just kept looking at my gma and said she was. It was like she was a baby all over again. She kept shaking, she was bleeding from inside her ear..I mean why can't god just understand that shes' ready to go? I hate to see her suffer like that.
So its valentines day. Yeah dont really have much to say about that. Wish I had that someone but hey my time will come haha.
Just stay optimistic right?