Ok, an update on me.
What's up...
Still working at Orange julius. I'm a supervisor. I tell people what to do. I hate that.
I'm buying my ps2 this week. I've been wanting it for awhile, but now is the week. Then I'll move on to equipment.
I met an old friend of mine from high school here. Josh. We had a guitar class together. Anyways, I got him to play for my stuff, but I have to help him with his as well. It's an interesting mix. His style is much more grunge, early 90's, and mine is more...whimsi-core. He adds a strange mix to my stuff, but I like it.
I have a bit of a crush on Josh's roommate, and ex, Sharon. But I don't like how attached to Josh she still is. It's sad. They broke up almost a year ago. She's...it's desperation. Like she'll drown here without holding onto him. He's told me he just wants to occasionally get laid. It kind of reminds me of that whole Jon-Val thing.
To think that was only a little more than a year ago. It seems like a lifetime since I was living with Brian. Shoplifting with Jon so we could eat. Getting high. Acting crazy... The next time I'm there I'll be able to drink legally, but... I hope I can recapture that feeling. It was very special to me.
I also have been hanging out with some other old High school friends. Bob and Miranda. I fucking love those guys. They're affianced(sp? It sounded cool in my head...fuck you!).Miranda is a Gemini who has been working at K-mart for a year now. She's spontaneous, enjoyable, and a pleasant conversationalist. Bob is an aquarius who manages a Mcdonalds. A little up-tight sometimes, but a really sweet man. Both of them are ridiculously attractive, and will spawn many beautiful children. Really great folk. Love em a lot. Their fucking moving though. It pisses me off. Josh is fun to play with and get stoned with. But when he's not high he's kind of a manipulative prick. I really liked Bob and Miranda. Felt really connected.
Nighttime in Montana is never very good. So quiet, so very lonely. This state is full of lonely. Everyone deals with it in their own way. I haven't figured out a way to handle being this alone yet. I don't sleep much. I'll stay up late watching TV or reading. I take a shower every couple of hours. Anything to forget how silent my house is. I put up some posters on my walls. That helped some. It gets rid of the overly white blankness.
I feel like two different people. One is my Washington Skimmy. He's funny, creative, says whatever is on his mind, and has no trouble in social situations. However, he's also a leech, a parasite, and can't survive without other people to use as props. Then there's the Montana Duane. He's independent, a hard worker, and completely self-reliant. He also has a hard time trusting people, making friends, and is constantly censoring himself around others. Two very opposite people. I need a middle ground between the Montana and Washington Duane's. I need an Idaho Duane.
Anyways, that's it. That's the story of my life here in the Big Sky state. It sounds weird, but the sky really is much larger here. Less lights, higher elevation, something like that. You get use to it after a while...I guess that's all there is to say about anything. You get use to it after a while. Kind of sums it all up.
Bye Journal Junkies. I'll be on most of the evening if anyone wants to email me.
Still working at Orange julius. I'm a supervisor. I tell people what to do. I hate that.
I'm buying my ps2 this week. I've been wanting it for awhile, but now is the week. Then I'll move on to equipment.
I met an old friend of mine from high school here. Josh. We had a guitar class together. Anyways, I got him to play for my stuff, but I have to help him with his as well. It's an interesting mix. His style is much more grunge, early 90's, and mine is more...whimsi-core. He adds a strange mix to my stuff, but I like it.
I have a bit of a crush on Josh's roommate, and ex, Sharon. But I don't like how attached to Josh she still is. It's sad. They broke up almost a year ago. She's...it's desperation. Like she'll drown here without holding onto him. He's told me he just wants to occasionally get laid. It kind of reminds me of that whole Jon-Val thing.
To think that was only a little more than a year ago. It seems like a lifetime since I was living with Brian. Shoplifting with Jon so we could eat. Getting high. Acting crazy... The next time I'm there I'll be able to drink legally, but... I hope I can recapture that feeling. It was very special to me.
I also have been hanging out with some other old High school friends. Bob and Miranda. I fucking love those guys. They're affianced(sp? It sounded cool in my head...fuck you!).Miranda is a Gemini who has been working at K-mart for a year now. She's spontaneous, enjoyable, and a pleasant conversationalist. Bob is an aquarius who manages a Mcdonalds. A little up-tight sometimes, but a really sweet man. Both of them are ridiculously attractive, and will spawn many beautiful children. Really great folk. Love em a lot. Their fucking moving though. It pisses me off. Josh is fun to play with and get stoned with. But when he's not high he's kind of a manipulative prick. I really liked Bob and Miranda. Felt really connected.
Nighttime in Montana is never very good. So quiet, so very lonely. This state is full of lonely. Everyone deals with it in their own way. I haven't figured out a way to handle being this alone yet. I don't sleep much. I'll stay up late watching TV or reading. I take a shower every couple of hours. Anything to forget how silent my house is. I put up some posters on my walls. That helped some. It gets rid of the overly white blankness.
I feel like two different people. One is my Washington Skimmy. He's funny, creative, says whatever is on his mind, and has no trouble in social situations. However, he's also a leech, a parasite, and can't survive without other people to use as props. Then there's the Montana Duane. He's independent, a hard worker, and completely self-reliant. He also has a hard time trusting people, making friends, and is constantly censoring himself around others. Two very opposite people. I need a middle ground between the Montana and Washington Duane's. I need an Idaho Duane.
Anyways, that's it. That's the story of my life here in the Big Sky state. It sounds weird, but the sky really is much larger here. Less lights, higher elevation, something like that. You get use to it after a while...I guess that's all there is to say about anything. You get use to it after a while. Kind of sums it all up.
Bye Journal Junkies. I'll be on most of the evening if anyone wants to email me.