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Well, overall i have to say today was a pretty good god damn day. i learned that i had most of my friends in my lunches on both days, and i got moved up an orchestra, i think im junior varsity, but whatever. well:
5th: orchestra-alright, not taht boring, vioin is extremely out of tune
6th: lets just say death would have been more pleasurable
7th: no comment
8th: slow as fucking hell, but alright
have yall ever wanted to rip out your eyes just to feel something? just to know if your alive? i know that sounds morbid, but still, i dont know what the fuck is going on, but i dont feel like myself, it feels like a gloomy, fucked up, groggy day. I was so happy when i woke up, but it just feels like somethings missing. i apologize for cursing so god damn much, but i just need to get some anger out, and to everyone ive taken my time on to reply, im sorry (once again), shit just keeps coming up. i would like to say ive unfortunatelly unearthed alot of bad habbits, i dont want to list them, but dont worry theyre not perverted or whatever lol (i dont do that shit). if anyone can give me some advice on how to let out alot of frustration, id be EXTREMELY grateful.
[EDIT] here, i would like everyone to watch this if you can (dont download, only open it, download is kinda screwed up), comment on it please and say what yall think, its sorta how i feel at the moment, not throwing up or anything like that (excuse the slgith nudity and shit like that please), just depressed............. http://s18.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2WPPJIETXYOV823BK2CY2ABX0A
here is a phrase that the almighty Anders Friden (of In Flames) said:
Egoism dictates human relations. A world where fashion outshines morality. Here success is written in blood-red colours. Designed by the thirst for power. Gather the faithful and propose a toast,to the epoch of indifference. An all to ordinary story, with aftertaste so bitter. Forced to be someone I don't want to be. I'm losing myself. Sinking deeper down, I'm caught in the world wound weba time represented by the void, an excuse without content,stuck in the abyss of existence,with a content void of excuse.
5th: orchestra-alright, not taht boring, vioin is extremely out of tune
6th: lets just say death would have been more pleasurable
7th: no comment
8th: slow as fucking hell, but alright
have yall ever wanted to rip out your eyes just to feel something? just to know if your alive? i know that sounds morbid, but still, i dont know what the fuck is going on, but i dont feel like myself, it feels like a gloomy, fucked up, groggy day. I was so happy when i woke up, but it just feels like somethings missing. i apologize for cursing so god damn much, but i just need to get some anger out, and to everyone ive taken my time on to reply, im sorry (once again), shit just keeps coming up. i would like to say ive unfortunatelly unearthed alot of bad habbits, i dont want to list them, but dont worry theyre not perverted or whatever lol (i dont do that shit). if anyone can give me some advice on how to let out alot of frustration, id be EXTREMELY grateful.
[EDIT] here, i would like everyone to watch this if you can (dont download, only open it, download is kinda screwed up), comment on it please and say what yall think, its sorta how i feel at the moment, not throwing up or anything like that (excuse the slgith nudity and shit like that please), just depressed............. http://s18.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2WPPJIETXYOV823BK2CY2ABX0A
here is a phrase that the almighty Anders Friden (of In Flames) said:
Egoism dictates human relations. A world where fashion outshines morality. Here success is written in blood-red colours. Designed by the thirst for power. Gather the faithful and propose a toast,to the epoch of indifference. An all to ordinary story, with aftertaste so bitter. Forced to be someone I don't want to be. I'm losing myself. Sinking deeper down, I'm caught in the world wound weba time represented by the void, an excuse without content,stuck in the abyss of existence,with a content void of excuse.